Tag: writing

• Vegas Hotel – Thoughts from September 14 and 15, 2022

  

  September 14, 2022 Patti is in the middle of trying to watch TV with no power. It’s 10:40 pm, and the power has been out since about 9:00 pm. This is a planned outage, so it hopefully won’t be out until the estimated 5:00 AM time. I showed Patti how to tether her phone with…

  Brian Kirwan

  January 2, 2024

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  2022, bad texting, birthday, cat sitter, cats, cats freaking out, drinking buddies, genuine relationships, groups of friends, hot spot, hotel suite, just sitting on the toilet, lack of cats on vacation, lack of people at home, last cat meal, my pooping is quick, nerd, Patti, people in Vegas, phone flashlight, phone tethering, planned outage, poop, pooping, power outage, sexist, sups, tablet, text, thoughts, Thoughts papers, toilet seats are not for sitting, toxically male, vacations, vegan diet, Vegas, violent, watching TV, wiping my butt, worse behavior, writing, young men

• Celebrities – Thoughts from August 21, 2022

  

  I was reading some of my old Thoughts papers in which I referred to people asking for money as “bums” and asserted that most of them were alcoholics and drug addicts. In the same sentences, I would say I’m a Liberal about most things. I now know that people don’t choose to be without a…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 19, 2023

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  2022, 5000 friend limit, accepting all friend requests, alcoholics, animation, anxiety, appreciative, art, bums, cats, celebrities, context, data, develop the thought, drug addicts, entertainment, Facebook, famous people, horrible behavior, immediate, internet, liberal, living on the street, mental illness, monitoring information, my feed, negative pages, negative people, negativity, no news, non-programmers, off Facebook, out of touch with reality, Penn Jillette, people you actually know, personal page, pissing off customers, please your customers, podcast, positive friends, public page, regular people, scientist, simple thoughts, support, technologists, technology, thoughts, Thoughts papers, tigers, Twitter, writing

• Fighting Brothers – Thoughts from August 15 and 16, 2022

  

  August 15, 2022 Yesterday, I kept getting interrupted by work. I only had one thought. Actually, I had many thoughts, but I only had time to write one of them. Today is a whole new story. I should be able to think my brains out and write most of them. I have plenty of sit…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 12, 2023

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  2022, autism, back tensing up, being unique, books, brotherly influence, brothers, changing premise, collecting stories, complex problems, conversational impasse, coworkers, disabled me, fantasy and science fiction stories, fights, fulfill a niche, future books, heightened sensitivities, highly sensitive person, humorous nonfiction, just another problem, least favorite things, least masculine male, lesbian trapped in a male body, literary agents, male influences, many thoughts, masculine traits, my brain, my style, not a fan, only brothers, only child, only sisters, opposite of me, paragraph structure, problems dealing with the world, published legitimately, publisher, Reality Acceptance, self-published book, sensory issues, sexiest humor, short story, simple answers, sisters, sit and wait, solved, sports, stress, think my brains out, thoughts, Thoughts papers, too many thoughts, understanding a person, violence, working, writing

• Out on a Live Stage – Thoughts from August 10 and 14, 2022

  

  August 10, 2022 I’m almost glad that the nervousness of performing live was too much for me. If I could do it easily, I would not be as happy and healthy as I am. I don’t like watching live performances so I don’t know why I thought I would ever want to perform live. Whether…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 7, 2023

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  2004, 2022, accepting you are gay, acting, admitting you are gay, anti-gay stance, applying, being honest with yourself, believe in yourself, believing in religion, concert, daily workings, dementia, Disneyland, drunk A-holes, exclusion, family reaction, fast forward, fear, gay, happy, healthy, illogical, ingoring your surroundings, live events, live performances, live shows, living a lie, misconceptions, my body is just a meat sack, nervousness, not pleasurable, performing live, rejected, religion, short thought, singing, South Park, supernatural being, telling jokes, thoughts, Thoughts from Life blog, Thoughts papers, tour of nowhere, understandable but sad, valuing religion over people, voice performance, volume, work, writing

• X Chromosome – Thoughts from July 30 and August 1, 2022

  

  July 30, 2022 The past few days have been weird, but not in a good way. I had to sit still on a freeway for hours and eventually get off the freeway by driving the wrong way. I gained 3.7 pounds in one day (not my personal record, but close). The day before, I got…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 28, 2023

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  1991, 2022, advantages and disadvantages, airport run, autism, autistic, blog, book, by subject, capable, caring about other people, chromosomes, chronilogical order, context, crying, entertaining, female, feminine qualities, freeway, future note, gay relationships, glasses, hang ups, having kids, I’m a different person, intimate relationships, kids, male, monogamy, mutated, mutated X chromosome, not wired for monogamy, podcast, polygamy, reading, reality is my friend, relationships, scientist, sex, shut down, still on the freeway for hours, stories, superpower, theoretical gold star, theoretical internet money, thoughts, Thoughts from Life, Thoughts papers, we are not wired at all, weight, weird days, writing, wrong way, XX, XY

• Test Results – Thoughts from July 26 and 28, 2022

  

  July 26, 2022 I really should save this thought until tomorrow, but I had it today so screw you, Tomorrow. It involves the number 27. I think we should declare the age 27 as the early change of life. I got married when I was 27 so that was a definite change for me. Many…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 23, 2023

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  2022, 27, about this test, accepting of emotions, age 27, blood in the stool, celebration, coincidence, commemorate July 27th, computer glasses, crying, died at age 27, doctor, extra pair of glasses, eye doctor, famous people, feces sample, future note, home office, learning, lesson, life events, mail, major life decision, married, movie stars, negative results, new glasses, no written thoughts, Patti, results, rock stars, scientific, stool, sweat and think, sweaty job, tears, test, test results, thoughts, Thoughts papers, trauma, twenty-seven, why, woman, write more, writing

• Writer Dude Stories – Thoughts from July 24, 2022

  

  We have a new person who works in our department who I hardly ever see because she works mornings and I work at night. I told her, “I hardly ever see you. Tell me something interesting about yourself.” She told me about her past jobs and that one of her sons has autism. She talked…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 16, 2023

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  2022, anxieties, athletes, autism, autistic, autistic child, autistic traits, backstories, boring jobs, boring story, care about people, cats, characters, competition, conflicts, cooperation, dull people, embarassment, feminine qualities, fictional stories, happily ever after, humor, judgements against strangers, judging, new person, perfect and boring, positive attitude, positivity, reality, ridged thinking, singular focus, something interesting about you, sports, stories, story with no conflict, thought elephant in the room, thoughts, Thoughts papers, time, underdeveloped, wasn’t diagnosed, we all have stories, work, write your own thoughts, Writer Dude, writing

• Sugar Makes Me Fat – Thoughts from July 23, 2022

  

  Today I feel fat. I’ve felt fat because my scale said I was fat. My stomach feels like someone attached a sandbag to the inside of my skin. All of this fat shaming is to say that I need to change my routine on my days off. I’ve said this before and here I am…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 14, 2023

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  “fat”, 2022, cats, change of routine, comfort, compromised health, control myself, days off, eating, enabler, fat shaming, fatness, feeling judged, getting around, habit, happiness, happy, health, hearing, hearing about yourself from others, high sugar items, I feel fat, I’m a mess, ice cream, indecision, judging, new creations, old creations, over-weight, Patti, reading, sugar, talking to myself, thoughts, Thoughts papers, time at home, weight, words, writing

• Toilet Paper – Thoughts from July 11 and 13, 2022

  

  July 11, 2022 I don’t know if I’ve talked about this, but I’m an over-wiper. I’m not happy until I see next to nothing on the toilet paper. It makes me wonder if other people even look at the toilet paper after they wipe. I also stand when I wipe. I guess my wiping style…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 2, 2023

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  1991, 2022, admit questions, autobiographical, avoiding health problems, bad habits, bathroom, Beatrix, bucking, butt situation, cat, cats, chiropractors, classes, cranky adults, crusty butt, David Sedaris, deep thinker, deep wiper, diary entries, different backgrounds, different toilet rituals, doctors, experts, freaked out, free the horses, health experts, health nuts, homeopathic remedies, horse riders, horse wranglers, horses, I don’t remember, kids, logical ethics, looking at toilet paper, marriage, nutritionists, over wiper, Patti, Reality Acceptance, remembering, scratching my face, shower, skin scars, stables, swamp butt, sweating, taking advice, talker, techniques, thinker, thoughts, Thoughts papers, toilet, toilet paper, wiper, wiping, writing, yelling

• Writing Ads – Thoughts from July 6 and 7, 2022

  

  July 6, 2022 I decided that my pseudonym for my fictional writing is B. P. Kirwan. Luckily, I can use my same Amazon account. (Future note: This was all I said on this day. I had apparently only started the thought because I didn’t have a period on the last sentence. My plan is still…

  Brian Kirwan

  October 31, 2023

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  2022, action movies, ads, affective ads, Amazon, B. P. Kirwan, being nasty, being nasty on the Internet, car commercials, category, cats, conservative ads, entertaining ads, Facebook ads, fantasy, female brain, female inside, female writer, fiction writing, fictional writing, future note, Google, hateful, hateful ads, hateful to me, Hulu, ignore ads, inevitable, interests, male writer, man on the outside, Netflix, no ads, no religion, nonfiction writing, offensive, pop-up blockers, pre-judged, pseudonym, Reality Acceptance, relevance, religious ads, religious and conservative, right audience, settings, simple minded, thou shalt not hate, thoughts, toilet paper doesn’t need ads, TV ads, typical man, websites, writing