Tag: singing

• Little Time for the Kitchen and Music Creation – Thoughts from October 27, 2025

  

  Life has torn me in several different directions recently. As usual, it’s mainly my fault. We’ve been working on the kitchen on my days off. That, along with grocery shopping, doing lawn work, and watching as many shows as possible, my days off are full. I’m used to that at this point. Having only a…

  Brian Kirwan

  March 24, 2026

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  1997, 2025, 30 years ago, backup routine, copper pipe, Crash of '97, creating directly, creating music on the computer, enter notes manually in the computer, free flowing ideas, grocery shopping, hard drive crash, hours of daylight, I Don’t Love You, kitchen renovation, lawn work, leaking pipe, Life is Horrible, losing years of data, lyrics, music projects, not being able to sing, out of practice, outdoor wood cutting, Patti, pipe cutter, pipe extender, pipe sticking up from the floor, playing guitar, playing piano, reading music, Realistically positive, singing, singing in the car, thoughts, throat problems, torn in several directions, translating the rhythms in my head, water to the fridge, working an hour away from my house, working on the kitchen

• New Years, Old Jobs, and The Wedding Song – Thoughts from December 29, 2024 to January 26, 2025

  

  December 29, 2024 The year is ending in two days. There are several things I’m looking forward to in 2025. My last loan payment will be at the end of February. In March, I’ll have been at Disney for 20 years. That will mean my vacation and sick time earned will go up. When I…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 9, 2025

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  2024, 2025, all we need is time, allergies, allergy to wheat, artificial intelligence, artificial singers, backup singers, being busy, building the shed, cats, consequences, creating a harmony, Disney for 20 years, disposing old shed, electric guitar, extended deadline, fixing the house, food allergies, four cats, future note, general scratchy feeling in my throat, giant chocolate chip cookie, June 14 1997, lifetime pass to Disneyland, looking forward, lyrics, married, meatball sandwiches, mobile home, my AI voice could sing, no downtime, no more wheat, Patti, reality, recorded main voice, retirement, retiring, singing, strangers around the house, The Wedding Song, thoughts, Thoughts paper, throat problems, tired, wedding march, working on song

• Creativity and Shyness – Thoughts from August 19 and 31, 2024

  

  August 19, 2024 I’ve talked with several people about my throat. I told them about the polyp on my vocal cords. The singer I talked to said she has had them on her vocal cords. She had them removed with surgery. A former nurse said trying the dietary changes made sense before going right for…

  Brian Kirwan

  July 29, 2025

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  2024, animations, autism, autobiographies, balsa wood, being gay, being shy, building things, creating candles, creating crap, creating songs, creative pursuits, creative skills, depression, dietary changes, drawings, encouraging environment, encouraging parents, encouraging people, experimental ideas, hippies, introduced myself, LGBTQ, musical creations, new person at work, new situations, painting ceramics, polyp on my vocal cord, shyness bubble, signs of autism, singing, singing too much, surgery, thinking is my favorite hobby, thoughts, Thoughts paper, throat problems, vocal cords, Wordscapes, Wordscapes tournament, writing, writings

• Mono Hearing Part 2 – Thoughts from June 3, 2024

  

  Thinking about the subject of yesterday’s Thoughts paper, I realized I had more to say. This will be Part 2 of my discussion of the nightmare I call mono hearing. If you didn’t read yesterday’s paper, stop reading this and read that. Now that you’re back or you never left, I will continue talking about…

  Brian Kirwan

  April 15, 2025

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  2024, an assault on my ear, cause of hearing loss, celebrities, celebrities with mono hearing, ear wax washed out, flushing the ear canal, getting a hearing aid, good ears, gradual decline of hearing, hearing in pain, higher register singing, loud places, mono hearing, mono hearing siblings, mountain driving, my bad ear, my good ear, noise into pain, pain in the back of my throat, pebbles in my throat, permanently raspy voice, popping ears, primary physician, referral from the doctor, singing, Sister, swimmer’s ear, thoughts, Thoughts paper, throat specialist, troublesome ear, troublesome throat, wax build up

• Out on a Live Stage – Thoughts from August 10 and 14, 2022

  

  August 10, 2022 I’m almost glad that the nervousness of performing live was too much for me. If I could do it easily, I would not be as happy and healthy as I am. I don’t like watching live performances so I don’t know why I thought I would ever want to perform live. Whether…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 7, 2023

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  2004, 2022, accepting you are gay, acting, admitting you are gay, anti-gay stance, applying, being honest with yourself, believe in yourself, believing in religion, concert, daily workings, dementia, Disneyland, drunk A-holes, exclusion, family reaction, fast forward, fear, gay, happy, healthy, illogical, ingoring your surroundings, live events, live performances, live shows, living a lie, misconceptions, my body is just a meat sack, nervousness, not pleasurable, performing live, rejected, religion, short thought, singing, South Park, supernatural being, telling jokes, thoughts, Thoughts from Life blog, Thoughts papers, tour of nowhere, understandable but sad, valuing religion over people, voice performance, volume, work, writing

• Singing My Songs – Thoughts from April 3 and 10, 2022

  

  April 3, 2022 I’m listening to an autobiography by Phil Collins read by him. He has had a life in entertainment since he was a young boy. His transition from a drummer and backup singer to the main singer in Genesis made me want to listen to my songs. Sometimes I listen to myself and…

  Brian Kirwan

  September 21, 2023

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  2022, autobiography, backup singer, barriers, cat, cats, concept of time, drummer, e-book version, exercise, experience your life, experiences, Genesis, genetic makeup, getting along, hiding, in my head, incomplete verstions, invading felines, live recordings, music, my book, my songs, my voice, not expercising, not full voice, Patti, Phil Collins, print version, profound, Quest, Reality Acceptance: For Happier and Healthier Lives, recordings, remember my birth, sad, showing up, singer, singing, singing in the car, songs, squishy couch, thoughts, vocal range, vocals

• Thoughts from April 17 and 25, 2001

  

  April 17, 2001 This is my thought for the day (and I have more where that came from). I just need to get it out because they’re hurting my brain. I’m waiting for time to pass. Don’t get me wrong, I love sitting around waiting for the day to pass. It fills up a day…

  Brian Kirwan

  February 7, 2023

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  2001, all the nothing, creative machine, criticism, disapproval, dreams, embarassed, emotion of the song, explanation, fear of doing something wrong, feather, flaws, giant weight, hurting my brain, just one more word, life, lifting you up, light feather, lyrics, memory note pad, my songs, my voice, my words, not believing in evil, nothing, Nothing for president!, nothing sandwich, one feeling, one subject songs, one word, questionable lyrics, remembering dreams, repeating patterns, singing, something, thoughts, time to pass, Unbroken, work, writing

• Thoughts from 1991

  

  1991 was the earliest entries in which I wrote my thoughts about my life. I believe I just thought of them as diary entries. I was in my first two years of college and was still trying to figure out what I wanted to do with my life. There are only two entries for the…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 6, 2022

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  1991, angst, confidence, diary entries, humor, life, music, paper, poetry, Prince, Prince fan, questioning, regurgitating hamster, responsibility, self-centered, self-deprecating, singing, speech, speeding, speeding ticket, thoughts, twenty-something, uncontrollable