August 15, 2022
Yesterday, I kept getting interrupted by work. I only had one thought. Actually, I had many thoughts, but I only had time to write one of them. Today is a whole new story. I should be able to think my brains out and write most of them. I have plenty of sit and wait down time. Enough about writing future thoughts. The next paragraph will be a present thought (of course you will read this in the future).
I had an incident with another coworker where my back started tensing up because we were reaching an impasse in our conversation. He wanted me to do something I did not want to do. I had the feeling of just wanting to leave the area, but I didn’t. We eventually worked it out, and we could have a normal conversation later on. Something like that may have disabled me the rest of the day in the past. Now, I can see it as just another problem that was solved. Part of the problem was he wanted me to give him a simple answer, but this was a complex problem. Regular readers of my thoughts may know I’m not a fan of those kinds of questions.
I’ve been collecting more stories from my fellow coworkers. Someone was talking about his older and younger sisters. I could almost tell he only had sisters. There are certain behaviors that only come from people who have only sisters or only brothers. Only children are the easiest to spot. Their behavior screams only child. When I think about people who I found out had only brothers, I can see the brotherly influence all over them. Having only male influences in your life leads to people who are the opposite of me. I’m the least masculine male I know of who isn’t gay. If anything, I’m a lesbian trapped in a male body. I find people who value masculine traits are people I don’t like being around. They are entertained by things I am not. They like sports, fights, sexist humor, and violence. Those are my least favorite things.
I noticed in the last paragraph I start out with one premise and change it almost completely by the end of the paragraph. Astute readers might notice this a great deal in my thoughts writings. Since they are my thoughts, it makes sense as my mind wanders from one thought to another slightly connected thought. This is the closest you will get to being in my brain. If you think that’s scary, think how I feel. My mind starts with many thoughts that I can’t keep up with when writing them.
August 16, 2022
Today, I’m wondering if there is a difference between being autistic and being a highly sensitive person. I feel like both terms can describe me and other people who have sensory issues. Both of them are from heightened sensitivities to the world, causing problems when dealing with that world. The autistic spectrum is so wide and the term highly sensitive is so broad that most people fit the descriptions of both. They should never use these terms alone to describe someone. They are useful in explaining why you might have certain problems, but they only start the discussion. Understanding a person takes more than understanding why they have problems.
I looked up literary agents that could hopefully help me sell my existing books (okay, two and one of them is a short story) and my future books. The search began with looking for someone who could get my Thoughts papers to a publisher. Another thought was getting Reality Acceptance published legitimately. I also have fantasy and science fiction stories, but none that are ready for publishing. An entire list of agents deal in humorous nonfiction, which I think fits me best. I have to see if there is someone who can deal with all my various genres. I’ll have to try several people and see who is interested (if anyone). My biggest asset is having a published book (even if it is self-published). This is the problem with being unique. Once I’m established, I don’t have to change my style. Before then, they will want me to fulfill a niche. I’m uniquely qualified to fill my own weird niche, but I have to convince someone my niche can sell books.
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