Tag: thoughts
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Headed to Disneyland – Thoughts from November 10, 2004

All the songs on my MP3 player are sad songs. I need to change that. I need high-energy songs now. This whole “new chapter in my life” thing is happening, and I need to get excited and energized about it. I’m starting my training at Disneyland at 10:00 AM this Saturday. Brad, who I talked…
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Working with Anxiety – Thoughts from October 19, 2004

Well, it’s been a while, but I’m back. Back in time, back to the Assessor’s office, and back to being clueless about what I’m doing with my life. Back to being scheduled every minute of the day, and back to that anxious feeling in the pit of my stomach for much of the day. Most…
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I’m Working on It – Thoughts from May 11 and 19, 2004

May 11, 2004 We had my mom over for Mother’s Day on, strangely enough, Mother’s Day this weekend. Our newly finished kitchen can be used to make shrimp, etc. We also had a Mother’s Day celebration at Patti’s mom’s house. I nerded it up with “the boys” most of the time. We were looking at…
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Longing to Create Something in the World – Thoughts from April 12, 2004

Far from being happy about life, I sit. This sentiment has worn me down to a fine point. I hate the world and want it to bleed. I want to bleed. It’s only in typing these words that I realize I have not expressed the last sentence except to myself. Don’t worry. You can kill…
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Eye Twitching Holidays – Thoughts from November 17 to December 18, 2003

November 17, 2003 My system had a minor crash again. I had worked on a song (a sad song), and it suddenly wouldn’t let me logon to Windows. After much ado, it’s back, but I’ve been saving all my songs in multiple locations – which I should have done before, but at least I’m doing…
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My 2003 was the Worst – Thoughts from September 10 to November 5, 2003

September 10, 2003 Help … HELP! … HELP, God Damn it!!! (Future note: This is all I had to say on this day in big, bold letters and I meant it. It’s fairly obvious, but I will let you know these words pretty much sum up my 2003.) September 23, 2003 I CANNOT STAY AWAKE!!!…





