All the songs on my MP3 player are sad songs. I need to change that. I need high-energy songs now. This whole “new chapter in my life” thing is happening, and I need to get excited and energized about it. I’m starting my training at Disneyland at 10:00 AM this Saturday. Brad, who I talked to before, thought it might be on Friday, but it’s not. I’ve already put in for the time, so I’m just going to stay with having Friday off. It will give me a chance to cut my hair away from my ears and collar. It’s the Disney look I need to have to work at Disneyland.
I’ll tell you right now, Patti is depressed about what I’m doing. She only speaks to me in a sad, depressed tone. My sister invited us up to her house for Cameron’s birthday. Besides her not liking to drive in the mountains, she’s just saying she’s not going. She brought up that her nephew’s birthdays (the twins) are going to be celebrated this Sunday and I’ll be in another Disneyland training. I’ll most likely be out and back by the time they have it, but she still is saying I “don’t need to go.” That means she doesn’t want me to go. To be honest, I’m someone who needs some encouragement. I will not get it from her. She’s too focused on what she sees as the tragedy of her life to care about any creative endeavors I might do.
I know what I’m doing sounds selfish, and it is. Patti hates her job and has wanted to quit for a while now. She hasn’t done it so far, though. She has her truck, but it doesn’t seem to please her enough to take her out of her depression. Her goal in life seems to be to stay home all day so she can be caught up on all the television shows she watches. Most of television I find crappy. I got a laptop so I could work on my stuff and at least sit next to her on the couch. We’d be physically close to each other, but further apart inside. I think the worst part for me is she doesn’t feel she can tell me what she’s thinking, so I have to get it from her actions. Being a person who doesn’t like or deal well with hidden drama, I’m having a hard time with her right now.
I think my only solution is to write my thoughts as much as possible and focus myself on writing and drawing. I need to finish my thumbnail drawings for the Brian’s Brain storyboards. From that, I’ll make a full soundtrack for the episode. Then I can create a full storyboard and get the Flash animation from the storyboards. What would make sense is to put the first scene on the Internet as a Flash animation and work on the rest after that’s finished. Unfortunately, with my new schedule, I’m going to need to pick when I do what more exactly and less randomly. I can’t just say, “What do I want to work on tonight?” I need to know when I’m working on it and what I’m working on tomorrow night. To Do lists are my friends. Speaking of which, I’ll start that right now. Bills are one thing I need to do tonight. Later …
Future note:
As stated at the beginning of this Thoughts paper, I went to work at Disneyland. I went to a job fair on my day off and they hired me. The hours and the pay were less at first because I would go to a part-time position. This was Patti’s main problem with the job change. She knew I was miserable at my job, but she was miserable at her job, too. When Patti and I got married, I was jobless because of a similar spontaneous decision on my part. I don’t make spontaneous decisions often, but, when I do, they are hard to understand from the outside. Because of where I was going to work and the jobs I was doing, my Thoughts papers took a backseat to working. There are many years between this paper and my next one. There are more years between that one and the one after. It wasn’t until 2022 that I began writing regularly again.
I’m still working at D-land. That’s what I call it now. I’m also apparently a liar because I rarely call it that and only with people in the know. The details of my job will remain vague if I talk about them at all. It’s easy enough to find out, but I’m going to make you work for it. The next few Thoughts papers will be about major events from my life. As an incentive to reading the next one, I will tell you I was drunk when I wrote it. I should also mention I was at home.
Thoughts from Life 
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