Tag: thoughts

• Cowboy Hats – Thoughts from September 10, 2022

  

  I saw someone working with a cowboy hat on today and I wanted to punch him in the face. While I would never actually punch someone in the face, it got me thinking about things people could wear that would let me know we could never be friends. I’m not talking about people who are…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 28, 2023

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  15151, 2022, ad for religion, advertisements on their clothes, arguing, beliefs, boring conversation, characters, clothes, cowboy hat, don’t judge a book by its cover, fancy clothes, fictional information, food, food is plentiful, food texture, gross food, hats, illogical clothes, inappropriate clothes, inner thoughts, king of the universe, knowing, less picky with age, mileage number, nerdy conversation, no go, nutritional value, picky eaters, piercings, privileged life, reality, regular clothes, religious clothing, responsibilities, seafood, slimy food, sweeping declarations, tattoos, the author, thoughts, unnaturally colored hair, unnecessary information, vegetables, wearing costumes, wearing hats inside, wearing too little, wearing too much, working to be incharge

• Anxious Nerd – Thoughts from August 28 to September 8, 2022

  

  August 28, 2022 I think I used to be more of a nerd, but now I’m just a recovering nerd. Reading back on my Thoughts papers tells me how much of a nerd I was. I talked about working on computers and other nerdy technical issues I was dealing with. Today, my nerdiest issues are…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 26, 2023

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  2022, A-hole behavior, A-holes, adult children, anxiety, anxiety medication, anxious adult, anxious child, autism, cartoons, childhood, computers, earliest memory, fantasy, few friends, first grade, grade school, hobby nerd, humorous, I care about other people, I thought I failed kindergarten, internet, issues, junior first, making friends, mortgage and taxes, nerd, nerdy career, nerdy skills, Other People Exist, Patti, reality police, recovering nerd, regular bills, science fiction, stories, stuffed animals, thoughts, Thoughts papers, tickets, toys, traumas

• Staring at Your Phone – Thoughts from August 23 and 25, 2022

  

  August 23, 2022 I just saw a large gentleman wearing black shorts with white socks that went all the way up his legs until they disappeared into his shorts. What is the use of wearing shorts if you’re going to cover up your legs with socks. Besides the fact that it looks completely ridiculous, it…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 21, 2023

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  2022, acting weird in the restroom, autism, autism spectrum, bad habits, bathroom, behavior, black shorts with white socks, can’t walk anymore, cravings, distracting myself, extra wide wheelchair, fixing boards, food conversations, foods, fruits, grandmother, health issues, health problems, healthy food, healthy foods that tastes good, how food tastes, illogical, just sitting in a stall, large and old, large gentleman, long pants, looking at their phones, looks ridiculous, lying, making most of their lives miserable, moments of pleasure, old person like me, Patti, physical problems, Samantha Irby, scowl on his face, sitting in silence, strained steps, talking about food, thoughts, tree branch, trees, unethical, unhealthy behaviors, urinal, vacuuming, vegetables, waddling walk, what they believe is wrong with them, working

• Celebrities – Thoughts from August 21, 2022

  

  I was reading some of my old Thoughts papers in which I referred to people asking for money as “bums” and asserted that most of them were alcoholics and drug addicts. In the same sentences, I would say I’m a Liberal about most things. I now know that people don’t choose to be without a…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 19, 2023

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  2022, 5000 friend limit, accepting all friend requests, alcoholics, animation, anxiety, appreciative, art, bums, cats, celebrities, context, data, develop the thought, drug addicts, entertainment, Facebook, famous people, horrible behavior, immediate, internet, liberal, living on the street, mental illness, monitoring information, my feed, negative pages, negative people, negativity, no news, non-programmers, off Facebook, out of touch with reality, Penn Jillette, people you actually know, personal page, pissing off customers, please your customers, podcast, positive friends, public page, regular people, scientist, simple thoughts, support, technologists, technology, thoughts, Thoughts papers, tigers, Twitter, writing

• Dream Wedding – Thoughts from August 17 and 20, 2022

  

  August 17, 2022 I was listening to a story where a young man was saying he had not had sex yet. Implied was that he had a goal of having sex and didn’t want to die without having it. It made me think about the goal of having sex for the first time. It is…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 14, 2023

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  2003, 2022, appreciating mom, appreciating mom for one day, appreciation in words, Assessor’s office, at my lowest, behavior, clartity, crappy year, data entry, disappointed, dream wedding, emotional satisfaction, goal, having sex, having sex for the first time, incomplete goals, just have sex, leaving, marriage, new glasses, night vision, numbers up close, people’s beliefs, perfection, pleasant sex, relationship, sex, simple goals, story, suicidal thoughts, teenagers, thinking ahead, thoughts, transition lenses, treating other people well, wanting a wedding, weddings, young man

• Fighting Brothers – Thoughts from August 15 and 16, 2022

  

  August 15, 2022 Yesterday, I kept getting interrupted by work. I only had one thought. Actually, I had many thoughts, but I only had time to write one of them. Today is a whole new story. I should be able to think my brains out and write most of them. I have plenty of sit…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 12, 2023

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  2022, autism, back tensing up, being unique, books, brotherly influence, brothers, changing premise, collecting stories, complex problems, conversational impasse, coworkers, disabled me, fantasy and science fiction stories, fights, fulfill a niche, future books, heightened sensitivities, highly sensitive person, humorous nonfiction, just another problem, least favorite things, least masculine male, lesbian trapped in a male body, literary agents, male influences, many thoughts, masculine traits, my brain, my style, not a fan, only brothers, only child, only sisters, opposite of me, paragraph structure, problems dealing with the world, published legitimately, publisher, Reality Acceptance, self-published book, sensory issues, sexiest humor, short story, simple answers, sisters, sit and wait, solved, sports, stress, think my brains out, thoughts, Thoughts papers, too many thoughts, understanding a person, violence, working, writing

• Out on a Live Stage – Thoughts from August 10 and 14, 2022

  

  August 10, 2022 I’m almost glad that the nervousness of performing live was too much for me. If I could do it easily, I would not be as happy and healthy as I am. I don’t like watching live performances so I don’t know why I thought I would ever want to perform live. Whether…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 7, 2023

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  2004, 2022, accepting you are gay, acting, admitting you are gay, anti-gay stance, applying, being honest with yourself, believe in yourself, believing in religion, concert, daily workings, dementia, Disneyland, drunk A-holes, exclusion, family reaction, fast forward, fear, gay, happy, healthy, illogical, ingoring your surroundings, live events, live performances, live shows, living a lie, misconceptions, my body is just a meat sack, nervousness, not pleasurable, performing live, rejected, religion, short thought, singing, South Park, supernatural being, telling jokes, thoughts, Thoughts from Life blog, Thoughts papers, tour of nowhere, understandable but sad, valuing religion over people, voice performance, volume, work, writing

• Toys and Charlie Manson – Thoughts from August 7 to 9, 2022

  

  August 7, 2022 Today’s Thoughts paper is brought to you by sleep. I’m looking forward to getting some tonight. I’ve dropped a lot of things today. Being tired will do that to you. I’m too tired to have many thoughts. I promise to have more tomorrow. August 8, 2022 I was going to work today…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 5, 2023

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  2022, action figures, anxiety, anxiety provoking, as a kid, Charles Manson, Charlie, Charlie Manson, daughter, driving down the street and back, dropping things, faded words, freeway, granddaughter, Harley Davison motorcycle, hateful words, living with mom, local Charlie, Manson died, middle-aged man, mobile home, multiple toys, no job, no one would employ him, one toy, open the box, out-of-control hair, parents took me to Toys R Us, regret, research, riding a bike, sad future, screaming obscenities, selling drugs, short motorcycle rides, sleep, stuffed animals, thoughts, Thoughts paper, tired, too tired, tough decisions, toys, Toys R Us, Toys R Us truck, urging his suicide, video games, wrong decision

• Men’s Restrooms – Thoughts from August 2 and 3, 2022

  

  August 2, 2022 As I was driving to work today, I saw a truck with a bumper sticker that said, “Dirty Hands Clean Money.” For the longest time, I could only read the first three words. I did not know what the last word could be. The one thing I thought of was “Heart.” I…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 30, 2023

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  2022, accusations, All-American Asphalt, asphalt, bumper sticker, capitalism, climate change, clothing line, comment, competitive crap, convicted, dirty hands, Dirty Hands Clean Money, dirty jobs, dirty money, disgusting A-holes, fame seeking parents, fasten his belt, Heart, horrible American company, male membership card, men’s restroom, Michael Jackson, nationalism, not washing your hands, pedophilia, podcast, pride, radio, restroom, scared, single person restroom, soap, stall, the news, thoughts, Truck, unclean, uncomfortable, weird, words are not facts, work truck

• X Chromosome – Thoughts from July 30 and August 1, 2022

  

  July 30, 2022 The past few days have been weird, but not in a good way. I had to sit still on a freeway for hours and eventually get off the freeway by driving the wrong way. I gained 3.7 pounds in one day (not my personal record, but close). The day before, I got…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 28, 2023

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  1991, 2022, advantages and disadvantages, airport run, autism, autistic, blog, book, by subject, capable, caring about other people, chromosomes, chronilogical order, context, crying, entertaining, female, feminine qualities, freeway, future note, gay relationships, glasses, hang ups, having kids, I’m a different person, intimate relationships, kids, male, monogamy, mutated, mutated X chromosome, not wired for monogamy, podcast, polygamy, reading, reality is my friend, relationships, scientist, sex, shut down, still on the freeway for hours, stories, superpower, theoretical gold star, theoretical internet money, thoughts, Thoughts from Life, Thoughts papers, we are not wired at all, weight, weird days, writing, wrong way, XX, XY