Tag: thoughts

• The Reality of Shyness – Thoughts from July 17 to 19, 2022

  

  July 17, 2022 It’s the birthday of the place I work. We have food trucks all over and they are giving burgers to all the employees. I gave my meal away to another employee and found out it was his third of the day. Someone else brought in donuts. I ate my regular food because…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 9, 2023

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  2022, alone, antidote to anxiety is knowledge, autism, book, burgers, complex realities, control myself, conversation about nothing, conversations, conversations with women, diverse knowledge, diverse people, donuts, favorite bosses were female, female teachers, food trucks, free food, genuine conversation, hate, hearing conversations, ignorance, knowledge, male teachers, men, misogyny, most men, my happiest and healthiest self, no point to the conversation, no politics, no religion, no sports, opposite of me, perspective on life, power and money, pro-science atheists, Reality Acceptance, reality denial, relatable topics, Sesame Street, Sesame Street for adults, shy, shy kid, shyness, social monster, teach about reality, TED Talk, The Highly Sensitive Person, the unknown, thoughts, Thoughts papers, trust women, website, welcoming, women, worries of youth, young and shy

• Morning Routines – Thoughts from July 14 and 16, 2022

  

  July 14, 2022 Patti was having me put in for time off for her birthday in September and she had me going back to work the day after we drive back from Vegas. She does this often. She tells me what days to take off, but doesn’t add a day at the end for me…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 7, 2023

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  2022, aches and pains, addicted, avoiding change, birthday, bloody medical procedures, bodily functions, brushing teeth, bugs crawling, changes, crazy, declining health, eating breakfast, emergency routine, encouraging unhealthy behavior, experimentation, fearing change, grammar checker, handicap, harmful habits, health problems, I must write things down, irregular happenings, itchy, large people, Las Vegas, last minute change, morning routine, obese, Off the Rails of the Crazy Train, Ozzy Osbourne, Patti, people ignoring their health, popping a pimple, realities, relaxation, routine, she told me, shortest morning routine, showering, squeamish, stretching, sugar, surgeries, taking problems seriously, thoughts, unhealthy behaviors, vacation days, vegan meals, Vegas, weight problems, wiping, words, work, zits

• Toilet Paper – Thoughts from July 11 and 13, 2022

  

  July 11, 2022 I don’t know if I’ve talked about this, but I’m an over-wiper. I’m not happy until I see next to nothing on the toilet paper. It makes me wonder if other people even look at the toilet paper after they wipe. I also stand when I wipe. I guess my wiping style…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 2, 2023

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  1991, 2022, admit questions, autobiographical, avoiding health problems, bad habits, bathroom, Beatrix, bucking, butt situation, cat, cats, chiropractors, classes, cranky adults, crusty butt, David Sedaris, deep thinker, deep wiper, diary entries, different backgrounds, different toilet rituals, doctors, experts, freaked out, free the horses, health experts, health nuts, homeopathic remedies, horse riders, horse wranglers, horses, I don’t remember, kids, logical ethics, looking at toilet paper, marriage, nutritionists, over wiper, Patti, Reality Acceptance, remembering, scratching my face, shower, skin scars, stables, swamp butt, sweating, taking advice, talker, techniques, thinker, thoughts, Thoughts papers, toilet, toilet paper, wiper, wiping, writing, yelling

• Writing Ads – Thoughts from July 6 and 7, 2022

  

  July 6, 2022 I decided that my pseudonym for my fictional writing is B. P. Kirwan. Luckily, I can use my same Amazon account. (Future note: This was all I said on this day. I had apparently only started the thought because I didn’t have a period on the last sentence. My plan is still…

  Brian Kirwan

  October 31, 2023

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  2022, action movies, ads, affective ads, Amazon, B. P. Kirwan, being nasty, being nasty on the Internet, car commercials, category, cats, conservative ads, entertaining ads, Facebook ads, fantasy, female brain, female inside, female writer, fiction writing, fictional writing, future note, Google, hateful, hateful ads, hateful to me, Hulu, ignore ads, inevitable, interests, male writer, man on the outside, Netflix, no ads, no religion, nonfiction writing, offensive, pop-up blockers, pre-judged, pseudonym, Reality Acceptance, relevance, religious ads, religious and conservative, right audience, settings, simple minded, thou shalt not hate, thoughts, toilet paper doesn’t need ads, TV ads, typical man, websites, writing

• Fourth of July Fireworks – Thoughts from July 3 and 5, 2022

  

  July 3, 2022 Yesterday was my birthday, and I celebrated with sushi and gambling. It was the big five two. It was my last day of being off from work with COVID. I’m back to work today. I always worry that my ID won’t work when I’ve been off for a while, but it worked…

  Brian Kirwan

  October 26, 2023

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  2022, America, arguing, Beatrix, behavior, beliefs, birthday, boring conversation, cats, celebrating, certain subjects, Christians, confused, conversation, COVID, dangerous, extroverts, extroverts annoy me, facts, fireworks, fireworks in the sky, first fireworks, Fourth of July, freaked out, gambling, good Christian, good person, illegal, interesting subjects, introduce myself, known facts, less shy, logical, Luna, mental note, modern America, my ID, neighborhoods, new employees, new people, Patti, people’s baggage, people’s beliefs, playing fair, pride, pride is not good, proud of America, Quest, Scout, Scout staring at Quest, seven deadly sins, shy, shy people, shyness, sushi, the littles, thoughts, topics of conversation, undeserved pride, uninteresting conversations, useless topics, white men, Willow, worst behaved Americans

• Covid-19 – Thoughts from May 30 and June 23, 2022

  

  May 30, 2022 Today started out crappy. I got a negative comment about the book The New Jim Crow about how racism has changed since the days of Jim Crow laws, but it still exists. The comment simply said, “ridiculous.” It was from an older man with Air Force on his baseball cap. Originally, I…

  Brian Kirwan

  October 24, 2023

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  200 pounds, 2020, 2021, 2022, ads, Aire Force, anger, attractive, bad behavior, baseball cap, blocking people, book, boost post, bratty celebrity, Brian Creates, cheating foods, COVID tests, Covid-19, creating, dozen donuts, eating, giving up, grocery shopping, hate, health, idiots, ignorance, Memorial Day, my behavior, negative comment, no political or social commentary ads, not my normal diet, not wearing my mask, pat the consequences, Patti, racism, Reality Acceptance, reality denial, regular breakfast, regular vegan diet, rejected post, sad songs playlist, San Francisco, sugar, symptoms, tested negative, The New Jim Crow, thoughts, Thoughts papers, throw out unhealthy food, vacation, vegan, vegetables, wish me skill

• Breaking Plastic Mirrors – Thoughts from May 22 and 25, 2022

  

  May 22, 2022 Someone asked about the term “reality denier” that I use for people who deny basic realities and behave badly because of it. I use it mainly to call out people’s behavior instead of swearing at them and getting angry. It’s not a perfect term so I usually only use it when I’m…

  Brian Kirwan

  October 19, 2023

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  2022, accepting reality, anger, angry, angry decisions, anxiety, bad decisions, basic realities, behaving badly, blind to realities, broken mirror, caring about others, conscious decisions, denying realities, depression, embarrassment, emotional, emotions, empathy, funny story, hate, hatred, humor, humorous, ignoring realities, improve other people’s day, jealousy, kindness, logic, loneliness, negative emotion, negative humor, no opposite of hate, non-reality accepter, not dealing with emotions, Other People Exist, people’s behavior, plastic mirror, Reality Acceptance, reality denial, reality denier, recognition, sadness, safety, seven years bad luck, thoughts, tight spot, Truck

• Conversations – Thoughts from May 10 to 21, 2022

  

  May 10, 2022 It seems like I am the only old person who is relatively happy with the way things are today. I heard several conversations today from older people who were complaining about what they could do or buy that they can’t anymore. When I’m waxing nostalgic, I’m usually talking about how much better…

  Brian Kirwan

  October 17, 2023

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  2022, better for more people, boring, Brian Kirwan Dictionary, change, cheaper, competing, complex concepts, complex subjects, complexity, conversations, embarrassed, enthusiasm, few interests, fewer people, filled with rage, future note, gas mileage, happy with the way things are, Harley-Davidson, Honda Civic, I love change, interests, loud, many interests, motorcycles, no interests, old person, older people, perceiving change, rich white A-hole, simpler, simplify, solving, The Love Boat, thoughts, uninteresting, waxing nostalgic, worse gas mileage, writing

• Rockstar Dreams – Thoughts from May 7 and 8, 2022

  

  May 7, 2022 May the seventh be today. I cleared out my office yesterday enough to get easily to my guitar. I still haven’t played it, but I can as soon as I add a new high string and tune it. It’s been a while, so I’ll have to remind myself how to do it.…

  Brian Kirwan

  October 12, 2023

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  2022, being shy, believing in magic, brutally honest, calendar, Chewbacca height, cleared out, connection points, deafness, dog, Facebook, fighting as kids, George, hating others, knowing magic is real, lack of embarrassment, limitations, Magical Misfits, my deafness, my guitar, my office, my songs, negativity, Neil Patrick Harris, new high string, nothing, on my good side, playing, racist, Reality Acceptance, red flags, rockstar dreams, saying inappropriate things, scheduling posts, Seinfeld, show about nothing, shy me, shyness, significant other, Sister, speaking softly, super religious, take offense, tall guy, thoughts, Trump fan, tune, understanding magic, website, website management, Wizardland, working

• Space Alien – Thoughts from May 3 and 4, 2033

  

  May 3, 2022 I’m listening to a book that is an oral history of The Next Generation and subsequent Star Trek shows. They talked about Deep Space 9 which I never watched. Hearing a description of the show, I don’t think I’ll ever watch it. They talked about spirituality being a part of it, which…

  Brian Kirwan

  October 10, 2023

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  2022, alien race, anti-science, bad health, behavior, can’t ignore it, communication, compatible, cravings, dad, Deep Space 9, donuts, fantasy, fantasy genre, fear of death, first dead body I saw, free will, funeral, future, Gene Roddenberry, genetics, health problems, healthier snacks, healthy, ignore others, ignoring reality, life support, limitless magic, magic, magical, Margaret Thatcher, May the fourth be with you, mom, muffins, mysterious powers, NerdMouse.com, nerds, nutrition, nuts without salt, open casket, painful death, pointing out what is wrong, pro-science, reality denial, religion, religious logic, salted nuts, science fiction, scientific method, self-centered people, space fantasy, speculative science, spiritual, spirituality, Star Trek, Star Wars, the force, The Next Generation, thoughts, unimaginative, water, weight loss, without religion, young man