Tag: Thoughts paper

• Behind the Scenes – Thoughts from November 28 and 30, 2022

  

  November 28, 2022 Everything about American football pisses me off. I’m definitely not a fan of any sport, but only football can send me into a rage whenever I hear about or see it. This time of year, there are commercials on the radio and TV. I have to switch away from them if I…

  Brian Kirwan

  February 6, 2024

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  2022, American football, basic routine, behind-the-scenes, commercials for football, creating new Thoughts papers, dreading meeting new people, enjoyable, exercise, football, football fills me with rage, football is racist, football is sexist, football is violent, football’s history of hate, forgot ID, high Triglycerides, housework, interrupted routine, meeting new people, moving around, new character in a book, new document, new people, new people have no baggage, one continuous thought, parking lot, point of interest, pretending, pyro debris, rage, something on my mind, sports are boring, stolen mements to write, stopping randomly, switch away, thought of the day, thoughts, Thoughts paper, thoughts to paper, treadmill, work, work ID, yard work

• Toys and Charlie Manson – Thoughts from August 7 to 9, 2022

  

  August 7, 2022 Today’s Thoughts paper is brought to you by sleep. I’m looking forward to getting some tonight. I’ve dropped a lot of things today. Being tired will do that to you. I’m too tired to have many thoughts. I promise to have more tomorrow. August 8, 2022 I was going to work today…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 5, 2023

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  2022, action figures, anxiety, anxiety provoking, as a kid, Charles Manson, Charlie, Charlie Manson, daughter, driving down the street and back, dropping things, faded words, freeway, granddaughter, Harley Davison motorcycle, hateful words, living with mom, local Charlie, Manson died, middle-aged man, mobile home, multiple toys, no job, no one would employ him, one toy, open the box, out-of-control hair, parents took me to Toys R Us, regret, research, riding a bike, sad future, screaming obscenities, selling drugs, short motorcycle rides, sleep, stuffed animals, thoughts, Thoughts paper, tired, too tired, tough decisions, toys, Toys R Us, Toys R Us truck, urging his suicide, video games, wrong decision

• Wearing Masks – Thoughts from April 13 and 15, 2022

  

  April 13, 2022 I listened to this book that was a scientific look at sex. I told Patti some of the interesting and weird stuff from it, but I didn’t tell her about any of the female stuff. It seems to be a sensitive topic for her. It’s been growing in sensitivity for years. I…

  Brian Kirwan

  September 26, 2023

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  “I believe …”, 2022, actors, American version, anti-competition, atheist, behind-the-scenes, beliefs, believe in Santa Claus, believing in yourself, caring about others, changing diet, diary, evidence, exercise, future note, grocery store, health, interesting, knowing yourself, knowledge, losing weight, masks, not guessing, not wearing masks, Patti, scientific, sensitivity, sex, should be, soda, solve issues, stuborn, stupid man talk, sugar, talking, The Office, thoughts, Thoughts paper, Trump, vaccinated, wearing masks, weird, weird thoughts, what is, writing

• Negative Entertainment – Thoughts from March 21 and 27, 2022

  

  March 21, 2022 If you think I’m going to be honest in these Thoughts papers, you must know me or am me. I don’t have an off switch to my honesty. The only difference between me and my overly honest grandma is I don’t consider my opinions as honest assessments of anything. My opinions are…

  Brian Kirwan

  September 14, 2023

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  2022, audiences, Bill Cosby, cats, celebrities, comedians, cynical, disgust, disinterest, ethical, even keeled, famous location to work, George Carlin, grandma, happier, healthier, honest grandma, honesty, illogical behavior, logical, look alike, more attractive in person, musician, negative, negative comedy, negative entertainment, negative people, opinions, restroom, Rosie O’Donnell, thoughts, Thoughts paper, toilet seat, toilet seat down, toilet seat up, unethical behavior, unintimidating, unisex restroom, who cares

• Pooping Cat – Thoughts from March 13 and 20, 2022

  

  March 13, 2022 Today, I have an adorable story about Beatrix. She is the smallest of Scout’s kittens even though they’re not kittens anymore. I was on the toilet and she was in front of me in one of the litter boxes. She was facing away from me and scratching out a good spot to…

  Brian Kirwan

  September 12, 2023

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  15-year party, 2022, Beatrix, Ben and Jerry, cats, fill the hole, future note, gaining weight, kittens, lack of sleep, litter box, losing weight, loudness, meow, mixed nuts, my weight, old couch, pooing, poop, Scout, scratching, sleepy tapestry of my day, small poo, sneeze, sneeze-fest, squishy comfort, squishy couch, squishy couch conspiracy, stemed vegetables, sucky time change, thoughts, Thoughts paper, time change, tired, toilet, too squishy, watching shows

• Restroom Habits – Thoughts from March 6, 2022

  

  I have to write immediately because it just happened. Two things I question in the men’s restroom habits just happened one after the other. Someone came into the restroom and washed his hands. When he was done, he walked over to the urinal. This is just the first thing I have questioned in the past.…

  Brian Kirwan

  September 7, 2023

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  2022, autism, behaving badly, beliefs, calm person, cranky, credit cards, Every Day is an Atheist Holiday, evil is not real, grumpy faces, habits, healthier, learning to restroom, less aggressive, logical thinking, men’s restroom, mouth nasty things, not wearing masks, organization, Patti, peeing, Penn Jillette, profanity, profundity, put things away, restroom habits, restroom routines, shyness, the hole in your underwear, thoughts, Thoughts paper, undoing your belt before urinating, unhealthy-looking people, wallet, washing hands, wearing masks, weird things

• Dream Rules – Thoughts from August 24, 2018

  

  Future note: I listed the rules of my dreams in this Thoughts paper. Enjoy. Okay, maybe I should supply a little bit more of an explanation. These rules represent the things I know are possible while I’m dreaming. They are things I know I can do and things I know I can’t do. I have…

  Brian Kirwan

  August 15, 2023

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  2018, actor, anxieties, anxiety, being chased, can’t do it, can’t yell, catching me, character, colors, directing my dreams, director, don’t see my real self, dream, dream colors, dream people, dream rules, dreaming, dreams, float up slowly, floating, flying, future note, help-asking machine, no running, people represent other people, playing a character, red is bad, seeing myself, story, strangers, thoughts, Thoughts paper, voice restricted, wake up yelling, wetting the bed, writing my dreams

• Mom’s Final Days – Thoughts from November 20, 2013

  

  (Future note: This was written about my mom’s final days. Her last day alive was on November 20, 2013, so that is the date of this Thoughts paper. Despite the sad subject, there were amusing and surreal happenings going on.) My mom had multiple sclerosis for many years. Near the end of her life, she…

  Brian Kirwan

  August 10, 2023

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  2013, absurdity, accepting Jesus, apron, assisted living, atheist, awkward moments, awkward pause, Barry Manilow, believers, chin on the guitar, church, condolences, costume, cuteness, dad, death, empathetic, Ewok, felt, God, grandmother, guitar, Halloween, Home Economics, hood, hospice care, hot head, indoctrinations, junior high, laughed, life story, masterful creation, memories, miss her, mom, multiple sclerosis, music, not suffering, obituary, parents, pastor, Patti, playing piano, pray for my mom, prayer, praying, religion, religious beliefs, Religious Science, religious singing, sad, Sally Field, science, sewing, Sister, teddy bear ears, thoughts, Thoughts paper, tribute, wheelchair

• Seeking Normal – Thoughts from January 16 and April 6, 2013

  

  January 16, 2013 Hello from the future! That statement is going to sound damn silly when I read back on this in 2020, when I’ll be 50. Now I said I’ll be 50! Can I just deny the future? Of course, I can, but when is the last time I listened to myself? I told…

  Brian Kirwan

  August 8, 2023

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  “fat”, 2013, 2017, 50 years old, behavior, boring, creature, different, Dr. Seuss, future, future notes, illogical bahavior, insulting myself, invade with town, losing weight, lost 40 pounds, normal, obese, Oreos, Seeking Normal, snobbish, story, strange, sugary foods, thoughts, Thoughts paper, town of Strange, unfamiliar behavior, vegan, weird, weird land, weird story, weird versus normal, Weirdsville

• Headed to Disneyland – Thoughts from November 10, 2004

  

  All the songs on my MP3 player are sad songs. I need to change that. I need high-energy songs now. This whole “new chapter in my life” thing is happening, and I need to get excited and energized about it. I’m starting my training at Disneyland at 10:00 AM this Saturday. Brad, who I talked…

  Brian Kirwan

  June 6, 2023

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  2004, animation, apart inside, bills, birthday, Brian's Brain, Cameron, computer, creative endeavors, depressed, Disney look, Disneyland, drama, drawing, drunk, Flash animation, hidden drama, job, job fair, jobless, laptop, MP3 player, nephew, new chapter in my life, part-time, Patti, sad songs, selfish, soundtrack, spontaneous decision, storyboards, television, thoughts, Thoughts paper, To Do List, tragedy, training, unhappy, vague, writing