Tag: Thoughts paper

• Mono Hearing – Thoughts from June 2, 2024

  

  I’m going to start today’s Thoughts paper with a thought about what it’s like to only hear in one ear. I noted about twenty years ago in a Thoughts paper how my hearing was declining in one ear. Over the years, I have gone from only hearing certain tones to hearing almost nothing. I was…

  Brian Kirwan

  April 8, 2025

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  2024, anxiety, attractive people, autobiography, bad ear, Beatles songs, Brian, creating music, deaf in one ear, declining hearing, Halle Berry, headphones, hearing loss, hearing only in one ear, humor, ignoring my name, Is this the correct side?, knowing left from right, knowing where sounds are coming from, live events, live events are a nightmare, loud noises, mono hearing, mono hearing sucks crap through a straw, overloaded ear and brain, Patti, Paul Stanley, physically hurts me, pity attractive people, Rob Lowe, speaking quietly, Stephen Colbert, stereo music, stereo was my jam, the name Brian, the price of beauty, thoughts, Thoughts paper, walking on the left of people, you’re on my bad side

• Non-Smokers, Feminist Punks, and Cassette Recorders – Thoughts from May 28, 2024

  

  Patti is still a non-smoker, but she said she found it rough recently, so she bought a week’s worth of nicotine patches. I have mixed feelings about it. You would think the time to use them would be weaning yourself off the cigarettes. She has been smoke free for weeks now. The physical effects of…

  Brian Kirwan

  March 25, 2025

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  1990, 2024, audiobook, autobiography, converting audio cassette tapes to digital, creating new songs, creating songs, distinct style, editing, experimental singing, experimental songs, four-track cassette recorder, high notes, home studio, horrible father, incomplete songs, influencial, junior high, Kathleen Hanna, macho crap, my songs, nicotine patches, non-smoker, only completed in my head, Patti, physical effects of nicotine, pioneer of feminist punk, punk music, Rebel Girl, record and edit songs, recording music, singing harmonies, singing lessons, song structure, song writing, thoughts, Thoughts paper, traumas, victims, weaning off of cigarettes, writing full songs

• Mormons, Caffeine, and BFFs – Thoughts from May 22 and 25, 2024

  

  May 22, 2024 Yesterday, a fellow employee retired. He retired from his primary job a while ago and this was his retirement job. Now he’s fully retired from all jobs. Patti is still retired and still not smoking. I never really had a plan for retirement. I will never see myself as a retired person…

  Brian Kirwan

  March 18, 2025

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  2024, addiction, alcoholics, audiobooks, BFF, BFFs, blind spot, books, caffeinated soda, Caffeine, cancer, Church of Lies, create and edit, creating things, develop ideas, diet soda, FLDS Mormon church, Flora Jessop, get away from religion, getting enough sleep, getting healthy, horrible behavior, husband should not be your best friend, leaving religious thinking, modern fantasy, Mormons, Mormonsixm, never be retired, non-smoker, not a fan of religion, opposite work schedules, patriarchy, Patti, polygamist community, quitting smoking, retired, retirement job, routine, Santa, science fiction, taking health seriously, thoughts, Thoughts paper

• Cinco de Mayo, Retirement, and Seeing Cubs – Thoughts from May 5 and 11, 2024

  

  May 5, 2024 As I mentioned yesterday, today is Cinco de Mayo. Someone joked that no one knows what it’s about. I could use my research I did yesterday to inform him that everyone knows it’s about the victory of Mexico over France in 1862. My heart would grow three times larger if he thought…

  Brian Kirwan

  March 4, 2025

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  1862, 2024, additional destinations, babies, baby boy, cats, Cinco de Mayo, clever, cold water, disgusted by fast food, enjoying vacuuming, extra errands, falling, freaking out the cats, humor, just watching me, knowing stuff, knowledge off the top of my head, nephew, non-refrigerated water, not eating, Patti, pizza eating, research, retirement, retiring, roasting people, sleeping baby, The Lion King, thoughts, Thoughts paper, tiger cubs, tiger documentary, tigers, tigers hunt kill and eat, trimming bushes, tv shows, vacuuming, Walmart, watch tv, workshopping ideas, writing, writing in retirement card

• Birth, Falling, and Our Stories – Thoughts from April 27, 2024

  

  The biggest thing that happened today is the birth of our nephew and his wife’s baby boy. I’m really hoping I can reword that first sentence when I edit this Thoughts paper. Now that I’ve mentioned wanting to edit it, I’ll have to leave it as it is so you can see what I’m talking…

  Brian Kirwan

  February 18, 2025

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  2024, addiction, baby birth, baby boy, bad-ass look, behavior to avoid, being a good person, being clumsy, birthmark, black eye, brighter news, competition, cooperation, dad, developing my writing, diabetes, dreams, dying of alcoholism, dying of smoking, falling, falling on stairs, grandfather, group pride, labor, memoirs and autobiographies, mom, my story, nephew, no cigarettes, non-presence, not smoking, Patti, people’s stories, permanent markings, pride and shame, probing, publishing a blog, quiting smoking, quitting for good, religion, see a doctor, serious falls, seven deadly sins, the word pride, thoughts, Thoughts paper, trimming the bushes, writing

• Meditation, Hypnosis, and Rock Stars – Thoughts from January 14 and 20, 2024

  

  January 14, 2024 I was listening to a meditation today. Why I was listening to it is not what I’m talking about today. Part of it was a positive affirmation to tell yourself. I’ve heard people saying these things before, but I was noticing how the affirmations have no connection to reality. Telling yourself you’re…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 19, 2024

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  2024, audio examples, audiobook, autobiography, avoiding conflicts, Barbra Streisand, being hypnotized, Bono, changing your life, credit cards, diplaying toys, fame, famous people, good people, Goodwill, hiding thoughts, high interest credit cards, hypnosis, indesicive, innermost thoughts, Irish band, loan, meditation, not a normal job, organizing, paragraph, Patti, people’s thoughts, playing with writing structure, positive affirmation, premise sentence, rambling, removing stress, rock star, rock stars, songs, strangers, stress, structure, the logic behind my actions, thoughts, thoughts about other people, Thoughts paper, toys, typical rock star, U2, unaware of the world, vocal range, Wilipedia, writing

• My Toy Store, Meowing Cat, and Broken Mirrors – Thoughts from January 13, 2024

  

  January 13, 2024 My office is slowly but surely looking like a toy store. I bought cubes and shelves to help me display them instead of piling them up in corners. I was questioning why I would have these things if I couldn’t see them. These are probably the last toys I will collect until…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 12, 2024

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  2024, being a collector, breaking mirrors, cat, cat food, cats, Disney, displaying toys, figurines, full voice meow, giant mirrors, good credit score, healthy cat food, low interest loan, Luna, meowing, my office, my toy store, my toys, Nightmare Before Christmas, old superstitions, organizing my finances, organizing my life, Patti, pay off credit cards, purchased at a discount, random crap, squirty poops, Star Wars, superstitious neighbors, thoughts, Thoughts paper, too much stuff, trash bag full of stuffed animals

• Tofurkey, Cats, and a Kidney Stone – Thoughts from January 7, 2024

  

  January 7, 2024 We’re already seven days into 2024 and this is my first Thoughts paper of the year. I have many things to talk about, but I just haven’t done it. Christmas and New Year were interesting. Patti and I were going to have tofurkey on Christmas Day but we were too sick. We…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 5, 2024

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  2023, 2024, Amazon, Beatrix, blotches of crap, cats, Christmas, drink more water, expensive cat food, gift card, grammar checker, kidney stone, lion’s mane for cats, litter box, Luna, new cat food, New Year, New Year’s Day, organizing office, organizing toys, Patti, plastic shelves, Scout, squirty poops, stackable cubes, the love cat, thoughts, Thoughts paper, tofurkey, toilet, vegan, vegetables, Willow

• I’m a Cat Trapped in a Dog’s Body – Thoughts from September 24 and October 8, 2023

  

  September 24, 2023 Flourishing in my own filth is the first thing I typed for this Thoughts paper. Where do I go from there? There’s only one place to go. I’m going where I always go. Here we are in my usual talk of wondering when the world is going to stop being so predictable.…

  Brian Kirwan

  September 3, 2024

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  2023, autobiography, barrier to moving, book, bring up images, caring about other people, cat trapped in a dog’s body, comparing men to dogs, creativity, depressing thoughts, driving on the freeway, editing and scheduling, feminist author, hiatus from writing, I’m a Cat Trapped in a Dog’s Body, lack of time, men’s behavior, moving closer to my work, my own filth, not collecting new stuff, our stuff, Patti, plosives, problematic letters, retired, sibilance, suicide for horrible men, the word moist, the world is predictable, think like a cat, thinking, thoughts, Thoughts paper, Thoughts papers, tired of my stuff, wishing people dead, writing

• Sweating Nerd Blog – Thoughts from August 14 and 16, 2023

  

  August 14, 2023 Sometimes I start my Thoughts paper with nothing to say. I put in the date and save it as a document, but I have no idea what I’m going to talk about. There are some things I could talk about, but I don’t want to talk about them. I had an idea…

  Brian Kirwan

  August 6, 2024

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  2023, An Atheist’s Day, atheist, blog, broken zipper on my pants, embarrassment, extreme heat, humorous story to tell, kidney stone, Laura Belgray book, loaner pants, my websites, nerdy, nerdy conversations, non-nerds, religious stuff, restroom break, sweating, thoughts, Thoughts from Life, Thoughts paper, website connections, what I’m going to talk about, wipe my sweat, WordPress, writing, you might be a nerd, zipper teeth