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• Sleeping In, Addictions, and Being a Control Freak – Thoughts from February 24, 2025

  

  The best way to start this Thoughts paper is just to start it. I have many things I want to talk about, but don’t know where to begin. The ongoing saga of working on the house continues. I have a few pieces of trim to fix, but we’re down to just finishing the painting. The…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 23, 2025

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  2024, addiction, alcoholics, Alcoholics Anonymous, belief in a higher power, Christian based organization, cigarette pack, completist, craving sugar, dad smoked, denial, drinking too much, fixing the trim, flood of emotions, holding them to get through cravings, I’m an atheist, illicit drugs, meetings held in churches, mental health, mentionaing God, mini vacation, Narcotics Anonymous, nerds, non-religious, non-religious programs for addiction recovery, not in control, painting, Patti, proof of denial, pure sugar, sleeping late, smoking, social drinker, substance take control, sugar addiction, thinking clearly, thoughts, Thoughts paper, too much of a control freak, under the influence of a substance, weight goes up, working on the house

• Emergency Rooms, CT Scans, and Old Habits – Thoughts from February 29, 2024

  

  It’s leap day or leap year or however you say it. I’m at the emergency room with Patti. She woke up and was blind in her right eye. Eventually, she could see out of the top of her eye, but the lower half was gray and blocking her sight. Because Patti is Patti, she drove…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 24, 2024

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  2024, admitted to the hospital, alarms, be honest or be silent, bean dip, blind in her right eye, cat scan, cats, CT scan, denial, doctor, emergency room, feelings, freezing room, Fritos, health, health problems, hospital gowned, ignoring health with humor, leap year, mixed emotions, mixed nuts, mom cat, nurse, ophthalmology, overnight in the hospital, Patti, person who gets sick, phone by the bed, physical tests, quiting smoking, raisins, Scout, silence, smoke related health problems, smoking, stroke, strokes, thoughts, TV as a nightlight, work

• Our Hermit Crab, Peacock, and Rooster Friends – Thoughts from June 16 to 18, 2023

  

  June 16, 2023 It’s Friday and I think we all know what that means. Usually, it means grocery shopping at home, but today it’s vacation shopping. Patti is looking for a bag for the cat sitter and guardian of our girls while we’re here in paradise. We lost water this morning before we could shower.…

  Brian Kirwan

  June 6, 2024

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  2023, Asian cuisine, birds, black rooster, cat sitter, cats, cats fighting, cock-a-doodle-doo, Competition ruins everything, drinking at the pool bar, earplugs, eye mask, fruit sticks, grocery shopping, hermit crab, last smoking vacation, normal diet, noticing animals, numb butt, paperback book, Patti, peacock, pool, pool lounger, pool volleyball, reading, red feathers, rooster friend, shopping, showering at night, showering in the morning, sleeping, smoking, swimming, thoughts, Thoughts paper, vacation, Vacation Land, vacation problems, vacation shopping, white Kindle, writing

• Operation Jamaican Vacation: The Anniversary Part – Thoughts from June 13 to 15, 2023

  

  June 13, 2023 Day two of operation Jamaican vacation, but it feels like day one. We were too tired to vacation yesterday. I had a dream where I was petting a seal. This was probably from me missing Luna laying on top of me and our daily rubbing exercise. I rub her and she tries…

  Brian Kirwan

  June 4, 2024

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  2023, anniversary, annoying behavior, breakfast, competition, Competition ruins everything, crabs, daily rubbings, drinking beer, human cat dad, humpapa, Jamaica, Jamaican vacation, long pants or shorts, male peacock, missing the cats, music trivia, New Orleans, operation Jamaican vacation, Patti, Patti and Brian, peachicks, peacock kids, peacock mom, peahen, pool volleyball, Queen, Queen songs, quiting smoking, repeaters dinner, school of fish, secluded beach, shallow ocean by the beach, smoking, Southerners, sweating, sweating is my hobby, sweating profusely, swimming, thoughts, Thoughts paper, translucent skin, trash talk, Vacation Destination, vacations without smoking, veggie bar, wedding song, What a Wonderful World

• Christmas Weight and Other Random Subjects – Thoughts from December 29, 2022

  

  December 29, 2022 During all the Christmas eating, I gained six pounds. I do it every year during Christmas. My regular eating habits are such that I can lose it relatively easily. We still have New Years Eve coming up so it will probably go back up again. I feel crappy when my weight goes…

  Brian Kirwan

  March 5, 2024

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  2022, addiction, boring conversations, Christmas eating, Christmas weight, cigarettes, conversations with strangers, COVID, eating habits, filling the holes of my life, genuine happiness, health problems, my dad, New Years Eve, Patti, pleasure, politics, random subject generator, religion and sex, restroom, sedentary lives, smoking, start conversations, stress, thoughts, touchy subjects, undiscussed problems, unhealthy foods, unhealthy people

• Thanksgiving – Thoughts from November 21 and 27, 2022

  

  November 21, 2022 I’m listening to Jenny Lawson’s book Broken and have listened to others by her. Like me, she has anxiety issues and thinks weird thoughts. I’m enjoying it. It turns out I enjoy hearing other people’s weird thoughts as much as writing my own. I like people I can relate to. I can’t…

  Brian Kirwan

  February 1, 2024

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  2022, addicted, addictions, America, anxiety issues, arguments, arguments with relatives, author, being a sidekick, belief, book, Broken, celebrate my flaws, Competition ruins everything, debt, demeaning, disagreement, discriminatory practices, equal partner, flaws are relatable, forgiving student loan debt, future consequences, help young people, Jenny Lawson, literary works, non-smoking, normalized discrimination, older people, other points of view, Patti, pleasant conversations, political leanings, privilege, promise of money, removing personality, resources, smoking, Thanksgiving, the addict I love, thoughts, weird thoughts, word choice, writing, youngsters

• Eye Twitching Holidays – Thoughts from November 17 to December 18, 2003

  

  November 17, 2003 My system had a minor crash again. I had worked on a song (a sad song), and it suddenly wouldn’t let me logon to Windows. After much ado, it’s back, but I’ve been saving all my songs in multiple locations – which I should have done before, but at least I’m doing…

  Brian Kirwan

  May 18, 2023

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  2003, alcoholism, always driving, animation, assisted living, back up, bad eating, being driven, California Adventure, Cameron, cause of death, Christmas, computer, dad, death certificate, Disneyland, driving, eye twitching, Grand Californian, Grand Canyon, holidays, mom, my songs, nephews, nerd, Nightmare Before Christmas, Paradise Pier Hotel, Patti, shy, shyness, Sister, smoking, soundtrack, stress, stress free, stressing out, system crash, Thanksgiving, the boys, thoughts, twins, Twisted Land of Oz

• Thoughts from July 6 and 10, 2002

  

  07-06-02 I love my new PDA. It’s great! I’m done being stupid now. This entry is over. (Future note: This was my first thought written on my new PDA. For those of you who are old enough to know what “PDA” I’m referring to, you may have chuckled at this short entry. Even if you…

  Brian Kirwan

  April 4, 2023

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  2002, bad eating habits, birthday, Calgon, CompUSA, cruise, dad, diabetes, digital video camera, FireWire, interview, Media Specialist, messing around time, mom, nerd, parents, Patti, PCI card, PDA, smoking, take me away!, Thoughts paper, USB, video, videotapes, writing