Tag: denial

• Mileage Milestones and the Weight of the World on Your Shoulders – Thoughts from February 21, 2026

  

  I wish the following happened on 2/23, but it didn’t. This is another entry into Brian’s mileage milestones. As usual, I saw the number coming before it arrived. Sometimes I get distracted by driving. This is not a bad thing. Paying attention to my driving is job number one, but a close second is seeing…

  Brian Kirwan

  September 8, 2026

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• Sleeping In, Addictions, and Being a Control Freak – Thoughts from February 24, 2025

  

  The best way to start this Thoughts paper is just to start it. I have many things I want to talk about, but don’t know where to begin. The ongoing saga of working on the house continues. I have a few pieces of trim to fix, but we’re down to just finishing the painting. The…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 23, 2025

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• Emergency Rooms, CT Scans, and Old Habits – Thoughts from February 29, 2024

  

  It’s leap day or leap year or however you say it. I’m at the emergency room with Patti. She woke up and was blind in her right eye. Eventually, she could see out of the top of her eye, but the lower half was gray and blocking her sight. Because Patti is Patti, she drove…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 24, 2024

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• Thoughts from April 30, 2001

  

  April 30, 2001 Well, I animated this weekend. I fixed several things that needed fixing in Alien Concept. I got the Bees Humming! Several times, the program would shut down after every other thing I did in Animation Master. I wish I could have a program/system that just worked without glitches. On my budget, it’s…

  Brian Kirwan

  February 9, 2023

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