Tag: Patti

• Sugar Makes Me Fat – Thoughts from July 23, 2022

  

  Today I feel fat. I’ve felt fat because my scale said I was fat. My stomach feels like someone attached a sandbag to the inside of my skin. All of this fat shaming is to say that I need to change my routine on my days off. I’ve said this before and here I am…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 14, 2023

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• Morning Routines – Thoughts from July 14 and 16, 2022

  

  July 14, 2022 Patti was having me put in for time off for her birthday in September and she had me going back to work the day after we drive back from Vegas. She does this often. She tells me what days to take off, but doesn’t add a day at the end for me…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 7, 2023

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• Toilet Paper – Thoughts from July 11 and 13, 2022

  

  July 11, 2022 I don’t know if I’ve talked about this, but I’m an over-wiper. I’m not happy until I see next to nothing on the toilet paper. It makes me wonder if other people even look at the toilet paper after they wipe. I also stand when I wipe. I guess my wiping style…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 2, 2023

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• Fourth of July Fireworks – Thoughts from July 3 and 5, 2022

  

  July 3, 2022 Yesterday was my birthday, and I celebrated with sushi and gambling. It was the big five two. It was my last day of being off from work with COVID. I’m back to work today. I always worry that my ID won’t work when I’ve been off for a while, but it worked…

  Brian Kirwan

  October 26, 2023

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• Covid-19 – Thoughts from May 30 and June 23, 2022

  

  May 30, 2022 Today started out crappy. I got a negative comment about the book The New Jim Crow about how racism has changed since the days of Jim Crow laws, but it still exists. The comment simply said, “ridiculous.” It was from an older man with Air Force on his baseball cap. Originally, I…

  Brian Kirwan

  October 24, 2023

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• Booster Shot – Thoughts from April 30 and May 1, 2022

  

  April 30, 2022 This past Wednesday, Patti and I got our second booster shots. On Thursday, I did yard work and was going to go out grocery shopping, but found my whole body was in pain and I just wanted to sit down. Admittedly, I sat down on the squishy couch so I got more…

  Brian Kirwan

  October 5, 2023

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• Did You Do Anything Fun Today? – Thoughts from April 23 and 24, 2022

  

  April 23, 2022 I asked Patti in a text if she did anything fun today and she said, “Like what?” That’s not exactly what she typed, but I wouldn’t be able to capitalize anything or use punctuation correctly to truly represent it. I would probably get a similar response from other people if I asked…

  Brian Kirwan

  October 3, 2023

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• Wearing Masks – Thoughts from April 13 and 15, 2022

  

  April 13, 2022 I listened to this book that was a scientific look at sex. I told Patti some of the interesting and weird stuff from it, but I didn’t tell her about any of the female stuff. It seems to be a sensitive topic for her. It’s been growing in sensitivity for years. I…

  Brian Kirwan

  September 26, 2023

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• Singing My Songs – Thoughts from April 3 and 10, 2022

  

  April 3, 2022 I’m listening to an autobiography by Phil Collins read by him. He has had a life in entertainment since he was a young boy. His transition from a drummer and backup singer to the main singer in Genesis made me want to listen to my songs. Sometimes I listen to myself and…

  Brian Kirwan

  September 21, 2023

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• Restroom Habits – Thoughts from March 6, 2022

  

  I have to write immediately because it just happened. Two things I question in the men’s restroom habits just happened one after the other. Someone came into the restroom and washed his hands. When he was done, he walked over to the urinal. This is just the first thing I have questioned in the past.…

  Brian Kirwan

  September 7, 2023

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