Tag: my songs

• Non-Smokers, Feminist Punks, and Cassette Recorders – Thoughts from May 28, 2024

  

  Patti is still a non-smoker, but she said she found it rough recently, so she bought a week’s worth of nicotine patches. I have mixed feelings about it. You would think the time to use them would be weaning yourself off the cigarettes. She has been smoke free for weeks now. The physical effects of…

  Brian Kirwan

  March 25, 2025

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• Wrist Rest Under the Keyboard – Thoughts from December 11 to 19, 2022

  

  December 11, 2022 I started writing a skit in my head as I was waking up the other day. The basic premise of it was a guy brought a kid to Bring Your Child to Work Day and his coworker questions whether it is his child. As the dialogue continued in my head, it got…

  Brian Kirwan

  February 20, 2024

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• Rockstar Dreams – Thoughts from May 7 and 8, 2022

  

  May 7, 2022 May the seventh be today. I cleared out my office yesterday enough to get easily to my guitar. I still haven’t played it, but I can as soon as I add a new high string and tune it. It’s been a while, so I’ll have to remind myself how to do it.…

  Brian Kirwan

  October 12, 2023

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• Singing My Songs – Thoughts from April 3 and 10, 2022

  

  April 3, 2022 I’m listening to an autobiography by Phil Collins read by him. He has had a life in entertainment since he was a young boy. His transition from a drummer and backup singer to the main singer in Genesis made me want to listen to my songs. Sometimes I listen to myself and…

  Brian Kirwan

  September 21, 2023

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• Drunk and Missing the Cat Sister – Thoughts from May 16, 2008

  

  Know that I’m drunk right now, so what I say is from the mind of a drunken person. Have I mentioned that I’m drunk right now? I’m working at Disney these days. I’m a lead. On Friday and Saturday, I’m the lead most of the time. We have several people who started with me as…

  Brian Kirwan

  June 8, 2023

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  2008, 2009, 21 year old cat, animation, cat, cats, computer, crying, Disneyland, drunk, end her suffering, Goodbye to My Soul, hesitation, kittens, lead, music, my songs, NAS, nerd, Nerd Mouse, pain, Patti, reminders of missed, sick, Sister, suffering, thoughts, throw up, thyroid problem, Truck, vet

• Eye Twitching Holidays – Thoughts from November 17 to December 18, 2003

  

  November 17, 2003 My system had a minor crash again. I had worked on a song (a sad song), and it suddenly wouldn’t let me logon to Windows. After much ado, it’s back, but I’ve been saving all my songs in multiple locations – which I should have done before, but at least I’m doing…

  Brian Kirwan

  May 18, 2023

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• Thoughts from July 1, 2002

  

  Tomorrow it’s birthday number 32. I know, what the hell do you care. No one else seems to care. Some of them act like they care, but they don’t. It’s not in their job descriptions. Why should they care? Patti always pumps me up for my birthday gifts. It’s not that I don’t enjoy my…

  Brian Kirwan

  March 30, 2023

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  2002, animation, artistic expression, backup, birthday, birthday gift, computer, Crash of '97, data loss, depressed, interview, job, knowledge, my songs, nerd, old songs, PDA, reality, thoughts, train of thought

• Thoughts from April 17 and 25, 2001

  

  April 17, 2001 This is my thought for the day (and I have more where that came from). I just need to get it out because they’re hurting my brain. I’m waiting for time to pass. Don’t get me wrong, I love sitting around waiting for the day to pass. It fills up a day…

  Brian Kirwan

  February 7, 2023

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• Thoughts from December 4, 1994

  

  The Diary of Wienie Frank How the funky chicken are ya? One of these days, I’m going to wake up and smell the coffee bean hair balls. Today, I’m looking at my life with a newfound fear. I’m afraid I may be in that well known psychological state known as Laziana (for people from Nebraska,…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 29, 2022

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