Tag: depression

• Project Families, Automatic Urinals, and Self-Diagnosed Autism – Thoughts from September 1, 2024

  

  Here we are at the beginning of Patti’s birthday month. I’m still waiting on an itinerary of our Route 66 trip. Does this make me nervous? Of course it does. Patti is very good at keeping me in the dark about specifics. Projects we do together always winds up with me trying to find out…

  Brian Kirwan

  August 5, 2025

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• Creativity and Shyness – Thoughts from August 19 and 31, 2024

  

  August 19, 2024 I’ve talked with several people about my throat. I told them about the polyp on my vocal cords. The singer I talked to said she has had them on her vocal cords. She had them removed with surgery. A former nurse said trying the dietary changes made sense before going right for…

  Brian Kirwan

  July 29, 2025

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• Grocery Scanner – Thoughts from December 3 and 4, 2022

  

  December 3, 2022 Patti came in with me to work today so she could go into the park. We stopped by a local Walmarket on the way in. As spell check reminds me, Walmarket is not its real name, but that’s what we call it. I needed blueberries and hair gel. The hair gel was…

  Brian Kirwan

  February 8, 2024

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• Breaking Plastic Mirrors – Thoughts from May 22 and 25, 2022

  

  May 22, 2022 Someone asked about the term “reality denier” that I use for people who deny basic realities and behave badly because of it. I use it mainly to call out people’s behavior instead of swearing at them and getting angry. It’s not a perfect term so I usually only use it when I’m…

  Brian Kirwan

  October 19, 2023

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• Brian Explains OCD – Thoughts from December 3, 2010

  

  Brian Explains: OCD Obsessive–compulsive disorder (OCD) is defined by Merriam-Webster as a “psychoneurotic disorder in which the patient is beset with obsessions or compulsions or both and suffers extreme anxiety or depression through failure to think the obsessive thoughts or perform the compelling acts.” I don’t mean to brag, but I have several forms of…

  Brian Kirwan

  July 13, 2023

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