Tag: 2004

• Laughing at Conservatives – Thoughts from February 26, 2023

  

  This happened at the beginning of February, but I thought I’d talk about it before February runs out. Patti and I were grocery shopping and an older gentleman was walking around with a blazer on making him look like a professor at a college. For all I know, he was. As he walked by us,…

  Brian Kirwan

  April 9, 2024

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• Out on a Live Stage – Thoughts from August 10 and 14, 2022

  

  August 10, 2022 I’m almost glad that the nervousness of performing live was too much for me. If I could do it easily, I would not be as happy and healthy as I am. I don’t like watching live performances so I don’t know why I thought I would ever want to perform live. Whether…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 7, 2023

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• Headed to Disneyland – Thoughts from November 10, 2004

  

  All the songs on my MP3 player are sad songs. I need to change that. I need high-energy songs now. This whole “new chapter in my life” thing is happening, and I need to get excited and energized about it. I’m starting my training at Disneyland at 10:00 AM this Saturday. Brad, who I talked…

  Brian Kirwan

  June 6, 2023

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  2004, animation, apart inside, bills, birthday, Brian's Brain, Cameron, computer, creative endeavors, depressed, Disney look, Disneyland, drama, drawing, drunk, Flash animation, hidden drama, job, job fair, jobless, laptop, MP3 player, nephew, new chapter in my life, part-time, Patti, sad songs, selfish, soundtrack, spontaneous decision, storyboards, television, thoughts, Thoughts paper, To Do List, tragedy, training, unhappy, vague, writing

• Working with Anxiety – Thoughts from October 19, 2004

  

  Well, it’s been a while, but I’m back. Back in time, back to the Assessor’s office, and back to being clueless about what I’m doing with my life. Back to being scheduled every minute of the day, and back to that anxious feeling in the pit of my stomach for much of the day. Most…

  Brian Kirwan

  June 1, 2023

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• I’m Working on It – Thoughts from May 11 and 19, 2004

  

  May 11, 2004 We had my mom over for Mother’s Day on, strangely enough, Mother’s Day this weekend. Our newly finished kitchen can be used to make shrimp, etc. We also had a Mother’s Day celebration at Patti’s mom’s house. I nerded it up with “the boys” most of the time. We were looking at…

  Brian Kirwan

  May 30, 2023

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• Longing to Create Something in the World – Thoughts from April 12, 2004

  

  Far from being happy about life, I sit. This sentiment has worn me down to a fine point. I hate the world and want it to bleed. I want to bleed. It’s only in typing these words that I realize I have not expressed the last sentence except to myself. Don’t worry. You can kill…

  Brian Kirwan

  May 25, 2023

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• Valentine’s Day – Thoughts from February 17, 2004

  

  I have a thought. Well, that’s good, Brian, because this is the place for such things, being as this is the Thoughts 2/17/04 paper. Let’s go! Okay! Oh yeah, this is 2004. This is my first Thoughts paper for 2004. This is not to be confused with my first thought of 2004. 2003, I hardly…

  Brian Kirwan

  May 23, 2023

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