Author: Brian Kirwan

• Test Results – Thoughts from July 26 and 28, 2022

  

  July 26, 2022 I really should save this thought until tomorrow, but I had it today so screw you, Tomorrow. It involves the number 27. I think we should declare the age 27 as the early change of life. I got married when I was 27 so that was a definite change for me. Many…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 23, 2023

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  2022, 27, about this test, accepting of emotions, age 27, blood in the stool, celebration, coincidence, commemorate July 27th, computer glasses, crying, died at age 27, doctor, extra pair of glasses, eye doctor, famous people, feces sample, future note, home office, learning, lesson, life events, mail, major life decision, married, movie stars, negative results, new glasses, no written thoughts, Patti, results, rock stars, scientific, stool, sweat and think, sweaty job, tears, test, test results, thoughts, Thoughts papers, trauma, twenty-seven, why, woman, write more, writing

• Fictional Stories of Belief – Thoughts from July 25, 2022

  

  I had a thought as I was driving to work, and I sent myself a note about it. I will now expound upon it in the storage locker of my thoughts. It continues my previous musing about telling your story. Your beliefs are not part of your story so you should not include them when…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 21, 2023

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  2022, accept reality, actions, alternate timeline, animator, autobiographies, autobiography, bad storytelling, beliefs, believe, complex, data entry, dealing with life, denying reality, Disney, distracted, distractions, driving, experiences, explaining a joke, fictional, fictional autobiography, how to interpret your story, ignoring reality, inescapable realities, metaphors, nonstop, note, noticing everything, our stories, people hate me, perfected the art of living, reality, reality is not funny on its own, rock star, simple answers, stories ruined, telling your story, thought experiment, thoughts, understanding life, what if scenarios, what you believe happened, your story

• Writer Dude Stories – Thoughts from July 24, 2022

  

  We have a new person who works in our department who I hardly ever see because she works mornings and I work at night. I told her, “I hardly ever see you. Tell me something interesting about yourself.” She told me about her past jobs and that one of her sons has autism. She talked…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 16, 2023

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  2022, anxieties, athletes, autism, autistic, autistic child, autistic traits, backstories, boring jobs, boring story, care about people, cats, characters, competition, conflicts, cooperation, dull people, embarassment, feminine qualities, fictional stories, happily ever after, humor, judgements against strangers, judging, new person, perfect and boring, positive attitude, positivity, reality, ridged thinking, singular focus, something interesting about you, sports, stories, story with no conflict, thought elephant in the room, thoughts, Thoughts papers, time, underdeveloped, wasn’t diagnosed, we all have stories, work, write your own thoughts, Writer Dude, writing

• Sugar Makes Me Fat – Thoughts from July 23, 2022

  

  Today I feel fat. I’ve felt fat because my scale said I was fat. My stomach feels like someone attached a sandbag to the inside of my skin. All of this fat shaming is to say that I need to change my routine on my days off. I’ve said this before and here I am…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 14, 2023

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  “fat”, 2022, cats, change of routine, comfort, compromised health, control myself, days off, eating, enabler, fat shaming, fatness, feeling judged, getting around, habit, happiness, happy, health, hearing, hearing about yourself from others, high sugar items, I feel fat, I’m a mess, ice cream, indecision, judging, new creations, old creations, over-weight, Patti, reading, sugar, talking to myself, thoughts, Thoughts papers, time at home, weight, words, writing

• The Reality of Shyness – Thoughts from July 17 to 19, 2022

  

  July 17, 2022 It’s the birthday of the place I work. We have food trucks all over and they are giving burgers to all the employees. I gave my meal away to another employee and found out it was his third of the day. Someone else brought in donuts. I ate my regular food because…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 9, 2023

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  2022, alone, antidote to anxiety is knowledge, autism, book, burgers, complex realities, control myself, conversation about nothing, conversations, conversations with women, diverse knowledge, diverse people, donuts, favorite bosses were female, female teachers, food trucks, free food, genuine conversation, hate, hearing conversations, ignorance, knowledge, male teachers, men, misogyny, most men, my happiest and healthiest self, no point to the conversation, no politics, no religion, no sports, opposite of me, perspective on life, power and money, pro-science atheists, Reality Acceptance, reality denial, relatable topics, Sesame Street, Sesame Street for adults, shy, shy kid, shyness, social monster, teach about reality, TED Talk, The Highly Sensitive Person, the unknown, thoughts, Thoughts papers, trust women, website, welcoming, women, worries of youth, young and shy

• Morning Routines – Thoughts from July 14 and 16, 2022

  

  July 14, 2022 Patti was having me put in for time off for her birthday in September and she had me going back to work the day after we drive back from Vegas. She does this often. She tells me what days to take off, but doesn’t add a day at the end for me…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 7, 2023

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  2022, aches and pains, addicted, avoiding change, birthday, bloody medical procedures, bodily functions, brushing teeth, bugs crawling, changes, crazy, declining health, eating breakfast, emergency routine, encouraging unhealthy behavior, experimentation, fearing change, grammar checker, handicap, harmful habits, health problems, I must write things down, irregular happenings, itchy, large people, Las Vegas, last minute change, morning routine, obese, Off the Rails of the Crazy Train, Ozzy Osbourne, Patti, people ignoring their health, popping a pimple, realities, relaxation, routine, she told me, shortest morning routine, showering, squeamish, stretching, sugar, surgeries, taking problems seriously, thoughts, unhealthy behaviors, vacation days, vegan meals, Vegas, weight problems, wiping, words, work, zits

• Toilet Paper – Thoughts from July 11 and 13, 2022

  

  July 11, 2022 I don’t know if I’ve talked about this, but I’m an over-wiper. I’m not happy until I see next to nothing on the toilet paper. It makes me wonder if other people even look at the toilet paper after they wipe. I also stand when I wipe. I guess my wiping style…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 2, 2023

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  1991, 2022, admit questions, autobiographical, avoiding health problems, bad habits, bathroom, Beatrix, bucking, butt situation, cat, cats, chiropractors, classes, cranky adults, crusty butt, David Sedaris, deep thinker, deep wiper, diary entries, different backgrounds, different toilet rituals, doctors, experts, freaked out, free the horses, health experts, health nuts, homeopathic remedies, horse riders, horse wranglers, horses, I don’t remember, kids, logical ethics, looking at toilet paper, marriage, nutritionists, over wiper, Patti, Reality Acceptance, remembering, scratching my face, shower, skin scars, stables, swamp butt, sweating, taking advice, talker, techniques, thinker, thoughts, Thoughts papers, toilet, toilet paper, wiper, wiping, writing, yelling

• Writing Ads – Thoughts from July 6 and 7, 2022

  

  July 6, 2022 I decided that my pseudonym for my fictional writing is B. P. Kirwan. Luckily, I can use my same Amazon account. (Future note: This was all I said on this day. I had apparently only started the thought because I didn’t have a period on the last sentence. My plan is still…

  Brian Kirwan

  October 31, 2023

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  2022, action movies, ads, affective ads, Amazon, B. P. Kirwan, being nasty, being nasty on the Internet, car commercials, category, cats, conservative ads, entertaining ads, Facebook ads, fantasy, female brain, female inside, female writer, fiction writing, fictional writing, future note, Google, hateful, hateful ads, hateful to me, Hulu, ignore ads, inevitable, interests, male writer, man on the outside, Netflix, no ads, no religion, nonfiction writing, offensive, pop-up blockers, pre-judged, pseudonym, Reality Acceptance, relevance, religious ads, religious and conservative, right audience, settings, simple minded, thou shalt not hate, thoughts, toilet paper doesn’t need ads, TV ads, typical man, websites, writing

• Fourth of July Fireworks – Thoughts from July 3 and 5, 2022

  

  July 3, 2022 Yesterday was my birthday, and I celebrated with sushi and gambling. It was the big five two. It was my last day of being off from work with COVID. I’m back to work today. I always worry that my ID won’t work when I’ve been off for a while, but it worked…

  Brian Kirwan

  October 26, 2023

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  2022, America, arguing, Beatrix, behavior, beliefs, birthday, boring conversation, cats, celebrating, certain subjects, Christians, confused, conversation, COVID, dangerous, extroverts, extroverts annoy me, facts, fireworks, fireworks in the sky, first fireworks, Fourth of July, freaked out, gambling, good Christian, good person, illegal, interesting subjects, introduce myself, known facts, less shy, logical, Luna, mental note, modern America, my ID, neighborhoods, new employees, new people, Patti, people’s baggage, people’s beliefs, playing fair, pride, pride is not good, proud of America, Quest, Scout, Scout staring at Quest, seven deadly sins, shy, shy people, shyness, sushi, the littles, thoughts, topics of conversation, undeserved pride, uninteresting conversations, useless topics, white men, Willow, worst behaved Americans

• Covid-19 – Thoughts from May 30 and June 23, 2022

  

  May 30, 2022 Today started out crappy. I got a negative comment about the book The New Jim Crow about how racism has changed since the days of Jim Crow laws, but it still exists. The comment simply said, “ridiculous.” It was from an older man with Air Force on his baseball cap. Originally, I…

  Brian Kirwan

  October 24, 2023

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  200 pounds, 2020, 2021, 2022, ads, Aire Force, anger, attractive, bad behavior, baseball cap, blocking people, book, boost post, bratty celebrity, Brian Creates, cheating foods, COVID tests, Covid-19, creating, dozen donuts, eating, giving up, grocery shopping, hate, health, idiots, ignorance, Memorial Day, my behavior, negative comment, no political or social commentary ads, not my normal diet, not wearing my mask, pat the consequences, Patti, racism, Reality Acceptance, reality denial, regular breakfast, regular vegan diet, rejected post, sad songs playlist, San Francisco, sugar, symptoms, tested negative, The New Jim Crow, thoughts, Thoughts papers, throw out unhealthy food, vacation, vegan, vegetables, wish me skill