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Anxious Nerd – Thoughts from August 28 to September 8, 2022

August 28, 2022 I think I used to be more of a nerd, but now I’m just a recovering nerd. Reading back on my Thoughts papers tells me how much of a nerd I was. I talked about working on computers and other nerdy technical issues I was dealing with. Today, my nerdiest issues are…
Brian Kirwan
2022, A-hole behavior, A-holes, adult children, anxiety, anxiety medication, anxious adult, anxious child, autism, cartoons, childhood, computers, earliest memory, fantasy, few friends, first grade, grade school, hobby nerd, humorous, I care about other people, I thought I failed kindergarten, internet, issues, junior first, making friends, mortgage and taxes, nerd, nerdy career, nerdy skills, Other People Exist, Patti, reality police, recovering nerd, regular bills, science fiction, stories, stuffed animals, thoughts, Thoughts papers, tickets, toys, traumas -
Staring at Your Phone – Thoughts from August 23 and 25, 2022

August 23, 2022 I just saw a large gentleman wearing black shorts with white socks that went all the way up his legs until they disappeared into his shorts. What is the use of wearing shorts if you’re going to cover up your legs with socks. Besides the fact that it looks completely ridiculous, it…
Brian Kirwan
2022, acting weird in the restroom, autism, autism spectrum, bad habits, bathroom, behavior, black shorts with white socks, can’t walk anymore, cravings, distracting myself, extra wide wheelchair, fixing boards, food conversations, foods, fruits, grandmother, health issues, health problems, healthy food, healthy foods that tastes good, how food tastes, illogical, just sitting in a stall, large and old, large gentleman, long pants, looking at their phones, looks ridiculous, lying, making most of their lives miserable, moments of pleasure, old person like me, Patti, physical problems, Samantha Irby, scowl on his face, sitting in silence, strained steps, talking about food, thoughts, tree branch, trees, unethical, unhealthy behaviors, urinal, vacuuming, vegetables, waddling walk, what they believe is wrong with them, working -
Celebrities – Thoughts from August 21, 2022

I was reading some of my old Thoughts papers in which I referred to people asking for money as “bums” and asserted that most of them were alcoholics and drug addicts. In the same sentences, I would say I’m a Liberal about most things. I now know that people don’t choose to be without a…
Brian Kirwan
2022, 5000 friend limit, accepting all friend requests, alcoholics, animation, anxiety, appreciative, art, bums, cats, celebrities, context, data, develop the thought, drug addicts, entertainment, Facebook, famous people, horrible behavior, immediate, internet, liberal, living on the street, mental illness, monitoring information, my feed, negative pages, negative people, negativity, no news, non-programmers, off Facebook, out of touch with reality, Penn Jillette, people you actually know, personal page, pissing off customers, please your customers, podcast, positive friends, public page, regular people, scientist, simple thoughts, support, technologists, technology, thoughts, Thoughts papers, tigers, Twitter, writing -
Dream Wedding – Thoughts from August 17 and 20, 2022

August 17, 2022 I was listening to a story where a young man was saying he had not had sex yet. Implied was that he had a goal of having sex and didn’t want to die without having it. It made me think about the goal of having sex for the first time. It is…
Brian Kirwan
2003, 2022, appreciating mom, appreciating mom for one day, appreciation in words, Assessor’s office, at my lowest, behavior, clartity, crappy year, data entry, disappointed, dream wedding, emotional satisfaction, goal, having sex, having sex for the first time, incomplete goals, just have sex, leaving, marriage, new glasses, night vision, numbers up close, people’s beliefs, perfection, pleasant sex, relationship, sex, simple goals, story, suicidal thoughts, teenagers, thinking ahead, thoughts, transition lenses, treating other people well, wanting a wedding, weddings, young man -
Fighting Brothers – Thoughts from August 15 and 16, 2022

August 15, 2022 Yesterday, I kept getting interrupted by work. I only had one thought. Actually, I had many thoughts, but I only had time to write one of them. Today is a whole new story. I should be able to think my brains out and write most of them. I have plenty of sit…
Brian Kirwan
2022, autism, back tensing up, being unique, books, brotherly influence, brothers, changing premise, collecting stories, complex problems, conversational impasse, coworkers, disabled me, fantasy and science fiction stories, fights, fulfill a niche, future books, heightened sensitivities, highly sensitive person, humorous nonfiction, just another problem, least favorite things, least masculine male, lesbian trapped in a male body, literary agents, male influences, many thoughts, masculine traits, my brain, my style, not a fan, only brothers, only child, only sisters, opposite of me, paragraph structure, problems dealing with the world, published legitimately, publisher, Reality Acceptance, self-published book, sensory issues, sexiest humor, short story, simple answers, sisters, sit and wait, solved, sports, stress, think my brains out, thoughts, Thoughts papers, too many thoughts, understanding a person, violence, working, writing

