Know that I’m drunk right now, so what I say is from the mind of a drunken person. Have I mentioned that I’m drunk right now? I’m working at Disney these days. I’m a lead. On Friday and Saturday, I’m the lead most of the time. We have several people who started with me as a lead who only work on the weekends, so I’m their main lead. I had some hesitation in interviewing and becoming a lead, but what can I do? Here I am. I’m older now and still not accomplishing what I wanted at this point in my life. I don’t know if I’ve mentioned it to myself enough.
Sister, Sister, Sister. On Tuesday, Sister was very sick and couldn’t lift her head off the floor where she was lying. She’s been very sick. She hasn’t been eating or drinking much. Patti called me Tuesday night at work (while I was at work) and told me that Sister needed to go to the emergency room. We took her after I got home at about 9:10 pm. We had to wait quite a while with Sister trying to get comfortable outside the examining offices. She couldn’t get comfortable because she was in too much pain. Patti and I knew what needed to happen and couldn’t stop crying about it. I couldn’t talk. I was thinking of things and wanted to talk, but every time I tried, I couldn’t say anything. When I spoke, the tears in my throat prevented me from speaking for long. Sister was 21 and would be 22 in September. Every time I mention how old she was, they were surprised that a cat could be that old. She was too old, too sick, and was suffering. We could do testing on her and try to fix her thyroid problem, but that would only be temporary. We had to end her suffering.
When we got home, everywhere we looked reminded us of Sister. My eyes were red from the emergency vet visit, but that wasn’t the last time I would cry that night or even that week. Her food dish, the bed where she spent much of her time, and even her litter box reminded me she wasn’t there. It will take some time to not look at the places where she used to be and not see her there. She moaned every day, she threw up at least once a week, and she wanted in and out of the back door every few minutes. Sister was a good cat. She is missed and will always be missed.
I knew from taking Truck to the vet on her last day of life we would cry, but I forgot how everything reminded me of our missing family member. When Truck was gone, Sister began her moaning. She hasn’t stopped moaning one day in her life after that, except for her last few days. Her moaning stopped because she would not be missing Truck any longer. She had herself to worry about. No longer Truck’s sister, she was Sister. She was done with suffering. She was done with moaning. But we are not done missing Sister. Truck and Sister will be in our hearts forever.
I’ve had several re-loadings of my computers after I’ve gotten my NAS (Network-Attached Storage). My main computer and animation/music computer are at a point where I can use them. I’ve worked on the very beginning of the Nerd Mouse theme song and like it so far. An animation program that I got the other day should work for doing the animations I have planned. I just worked on the lawn on my two days off and am exhausted. I rented a tiller and tilled the backyard. Every muscle on my body is sore. The one good thing it did was distract me from missing Sister. (Future note: The animation software was Toon Boom. I have used it for many years to do many animations. The Nerd Mouse theme song was from a song I did called Goodbye to My Soul. I liked the tune, but stopped believing in souls. As usual, I never developed the Nerd Mouse song beyond this point. I included it in some of my animations without the words. Truck and Sister are still missed. In 2009, we adopted three new kittens. As I type this, we still have one of those kittens.)
My drunk is over and so am I.
Thoughts from Life 
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