Tag: Patti

• Project Families, Automatic Urinals, and Self-Diagnosed Autism – Thoughts from September 1, 2024

  

  Here we are at the beginning of Patti’s birthday month. I’m still waiting on an itinerary of our Route 66 trip. Does this make me nervous? Of course it does. Patti is very good at keeping me in the dark about specifics. Projects we do together always winds up with me trying to find out…

  Brian Kirwan

  August 5, 2025

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  2024, anxiety, authentic form of communication, autism, autism spectrum, autistic traits, automatic toilets, automatic urinal, behaviors of autism, birthday month, covering the sensor, depression, doing projects, easily distracted, exact sequence, going to concerts, happier being myself, hiding who I am, lack of control in life, learning to sew, looking people in the eye, loud noises, manual button, masking, mental health, official diagnosis, Patti, problems with crowds, removing myself, Route 66 trip, self-diagnosed autism, sensory issues, sensory overload, special allowances, thoughts, water keeps running, working with wood

• Singing in the Car was My Downfall – Thoughts from August 17, 2024

  

  The first thing I must talk about is my doctor’s appointment to look at my throat. I finally got the camera down my throat and saw an image of my vocal cords. They gave me a numbing agent in my nose that went down my throat. Before they gave it to me, they asked if…

  Brian Kirwan

  July 22, 2025

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  2024, alcohol, ball on my vocal cord, camera down my throat, carbonated drinks, cayenne pepper, doctor’s appointment, gradual change, gross, moratorium on singing, my first surgery, nasal passage, nodules, numb nose, numbing agent, Patti, polyp on my vocal cord, singing in the car, straining my voice, thoughts, vocal cords

• Politics and Route 66 Trips – Thoughts from August 4, 2024

  

  August 4, 2024 This is going to be a different kind of Thoughts paper. These might look like the regular words I use, but don’t be fooled. I’m writing them under a change tree. What’s a change tree? It’s the tree of change, of course. I’ve never been a fan of change. It always comes…

  Brian Kirwan

  July 8, 2025

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  2020 election, 2024, anxiety, being liberal, birthday, caring about others, change, complaining, conservative, conversation, enough old white men in politics, interrupted routines, it is not perfect but nothing is, itinerary of the trip, Joe Biden, Kamala Harris, liberal, looking conservative, non-religious, Patti, prepared for change, Reality Acceptance party, religious beliefs, respresent all Americans, Route 66, routines, running for President, sad and miserable people, scientific facts, talking points, thoughts, Thoughts paper, under a change tree, vacation, vice president, winging things

• Loud Laughter, Ugliness, and Cat Fur – Thoughts from July 23 to 27, 2024

  

  July 23, 2024 There was a group of people who were talking about 100 feet from me. One member of the group had a laugh he bellowed several times which I could hear from where I was. Eventually, the entire group erupted into laughter at an equal volume to the bellower. Some people enjoy being…

  Brian Kirwan

  July 1, 2025

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  2024, bad ear, being allergic to cats, bellowing, blocking fur, cat allergy, cat fur, cats, cool numbers, day matches the year, disgust, fictional beings, four cats, good ear, group discussions, group insults, group topics, groups of people, Halloween candy, Halloween decorations, Halloween season, hearing aids, hearing test, humidifier, I thank myself for being weird, loud laughter, loud leaders, loud noises hurt my ear, mono hearing, parties, Patti, proper descriptions, scientific chart of ugliness, summer season, take a mental picture, the cats, the end of summer, thoughts, ugliness, ugly, ugly has no scale, ugly things don’t exist, unattractive things, wearing masks at night, weird squirrels

• Inflatable Slides, Thinking for Myself, and Smelling Others – Thoughts from July 22, 2024

  

  I saw a billboard from the freeway that was advertising an inflatable slide that you could rent for your party. The billboard was in Spanish, so I don’t know what it actually said. It made me smile because Patti was talking the other day about getting an inflatable slide in our backyard. She saw that…

  Brian Kirwan

  June 24, 2025

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  2024, advertisements, billboards, body odor, boredom, choice is a privilege, disgusting smell, doing things my way, elevator smell, expressing thoughts, filling in downtime, free will, gorilla smell, inflatable slides, nerdy problems, nerdy thoughts, no pleasing me, paralyzed by choices, parties, Patti, pleasant smells, thinking about doing something, thinking for myself, thoughts, Thoughts paper, too much information, too much perfume, unexpressed thoughts, unexpressed topics, writing about indecision

• White Lineage, Personal Planners, and Shoe Racks – Thoughts from July 21, 2024

  

  Yesterday, I was coming into work, and I saw a personalized license plate on a white Ford truck in front of me. I stared at it and figured out the weird combination of letters. It could only be one thing. I couldn’t think of anything else it could be. The license was as close to…

  Brian Kirwan

  June 17, 2025

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  “white lineage”, 2024, acting, birthday, building, built a shoe rack, bumper stickers, collaboration, cordless drill, embarrassment, focusing, Ford truck, happy wife, I need a manager, making doctor’s appointments, music, Patti, personal assistant, personalized license plate, phone calls, planning skills, planning vacations, race cars, racist phrase, rage, recent obsession, speedway bumper sticker, tennis shoes, thickness of the wood, thoughts, vague memory, white lightning, white racists, writing, writing details

• Windshields, Pig Men, and Random Clams – Thoughts from July 16 and 17, 2024

  

  July 16, 2024 I would like to talk about an issue that is of great importance to me. You may already know what I’m going to talk about. Yes, the thing that disturbs me most when I’m driving is having a dirty windshield. We’ve all been there. Bugs die, birds poop, and dirt gathers on…

  Brian Kirwan

  June 10, 2025

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  2024, bitch-fest, caring about other people, caring about women, Cartoon Network, Chartreuse!, dirty windshields, eating raw vegetables, Emilio Estevez, fart after eating, fart jokes, farting while sleeping, horrible traditions, how to be men, invisible windshield, issues, literary reference, Martin Sheen, men are pigs, Patti, random clam, random things!, restroom, seeting the toilet seat up, self-deprecating humor, summer of our discontent, teach men to be good people, thoughts, vegan diet, weird animation, windshield washer fluid, windshield wipers, yoga, YouTube

• Writing Thoughts and Me – Thoughts from July 8 to 14, 2024

  

  July 8, 2024 There’s been a rumor that this is my last Thoughts paper. I just want to state for the record that I still have thoughts I write down and I don’t see an end to them anytime soon. Who started the rumor is not important. Why they started the rumor is more relevant…

  Brian Kirwan

  June 3, 2025

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  2024, autobiagraphy, average height, average looks, average white man, big nose, blind without glasses, camera down my throat, curious what authors look like, deaf dumb and blind kid, deaf in one ear, ears stick out, graying hair, inner thoughts, interesting paragraphs, laughing at my flesh, life experience, living in the past, meeting expectations, midlife, motives, my surface level self, near sighted, outer appearance, paragraphs, Patti, Pete Townsend, point of living, product of the times, questioning your purpose, reading, receding hair, Roger Daltrey, rumor free, rumors, sentences, shampoo with dye, sore throat, The Who, thoughts, Thoughts from Life, Thoughts paper, throat cancer, throat problems, throat specialist, unprecedented times, wearing glasses, weight, Wordscapes, writing, you can only live in the present

• Birthdays at Home – Thoughts from July 1 and 6, 2024

  

  July 1, 2024 July is here, and the hot summer bugs are singing their songs. To me, the songs mostly sound like Happy Birthday because tomorrow is my birthday! I don’t know if I’ve ever talked about what it’s like to have a summer birthday, so here I go. If you have a summer birthday,…

  Brian Kirwan

  May 27, 2025

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  2024, 54 years old, alcoholic drinks, annoying birthday aftermath, Beatrix, being held back a year, Ben and Jerry’s dairy free ice cream, Blue Milk, cats hanging out with me, celebrate on my birthday, chili dog from Wienerschnitzel, chocolate chip cookie dough, choice of beverages, dairy, dairy-free ice cream, Disneyland, eating as you drink alcohol, eating in a restaurant, fireworks, food is better at home, Fourth of July, girl cats, Happy Birthday, hearing problems, holiday near your birthday, home body, hot summer bugs, lactose intolerance, leftovers, Luna, no school birthdays, Patti, sample cocktails, Scout, senior citizen, singing bugs, sliver of bed space, Star Wars Galaxy’s Edge, staying at home, summer birthdays, sushi on my birthday, the cats, thoughts, Willow

• Traveling the World, Autobiographies, and Revisionist History – Thoughts from June 26 and 30, 2024

  

  June 26, 2024 Do I regret not living in a dorm, traveling the world, or living more adventurously when I was young? The rest of this Thoughts paper will explain my answer. Why am I asking this philosophical question about my possible regrets? It began when I was listening to Rebel Wilson’s autobiography. She talked…

  Brian Kirwan

  May 20, 2025

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  2024, audiobooks, autobiography, being a good person, being an interesting person, being rich and famous, believing in supernatural things, California, caring about other people, coincidence, college, destiny, foreign laguages, foreigner in my own land, getting philosophical and spiritual, growing up in a small city, justifying your beliefs, living in a dorm, living outside the US, love at first sight, mono hearing, multicultural, Patti, Paul Stanley, private school, public school, Rebel Wilson, regrets, religious beliefs, religious words, revisionist history, spiritual equals religious, temporary relationships, thinking independently, thoughts, Thoughts paper, traveling the world, weird shy kid, world traveling, you can’t change the past