Tag: painting

• Sleeping In, Addictions, and Being a Control Freak – Thoughts from February 24, 2025

  

  The best way to start this Thoughts paper is just to start it. I have many things I want to talk about, but don’t know where to begin. The ongoing saga of working on the house continues. I have a few pieces of trim to fix, but we’re down to just finishing the painting. The…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 23, 2025

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  2024, addiction, alcoholics, Alcoholics Anonymous, belief in a higher power, Christian based organization, cigarette pack, completist, craving sugar, dad smoked, denial, drinking too much, fixing the trim, flood of emotions, holding them to get through cravings, I’m an atheist, illicit drugs, meetings held in churches, mental health, mentionaing God, mini vacation, Narcotics Anonymous, nerds, non-religious, non-religious programs for addiction recovery, not in control, painting, Patti, proof of denial, pure sugar, sleeping late, smoking, social drinker, substance take control, sugar addiction, thinking clearly, thoughts, Thoughts paper, too much of a control freak, under the influence of a substance, weight goes up, working on the house

• Brian Explains Boredom and Change – Thoughts from October 15 and 22

  

  October 15, 2010 Brian Explains: Boredom Some people have a hard time being alone. I am not one of those people. I can be alone for hours and I always find something to do. The hardest part for me is deciding what to do. I guess this makes this an anti-explanation of boredom, but I…

  Brian Kirwan

  June 29, 2023

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  2010, alone, Barbie, Barbies, bicycling, bored, boredom, boring, Brian Explains Life, change, change in your life, computer, creative, creativity, drawing, embrace change, health, hoarders, hobbies, hobby, imaginary, juggling, kids are stupid, Lego building, lonely people, moviemaking, music, Nebraska, painting, productive, programming, routine, same every day, sculpting, skateboarding, swimming, thoughts, toys, writing

• Wires to Nowhere – Thoughts from September 2, 2003

  

  Good morning and welcome to life in the doldrums. I can barely keep myself awake. I’m working at the Assessor’s office. Working here is so dull (how dull is it?), (it’s so dull) I’m using my “boredom sucks” protest signs to hold open my eyelids. Even that last sentence shows how bored and tired I…

  Brian Kirwan

  May 9, 2023

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  2003, AOL, assisted living, bored, cable, dial-up, dining area, dining partner, dreams, DSL, dull job, good morning is a misnomer, humor, mom, older gentleman with tattoos, painting, parlines and cream, Patti, phone line, picture frame bolted to the wall, pralines and cream, roommate, rumpus room, so many screws, thoughts, tired, too religious, weird, wire the house, wires to nowhere

• Thoughts from August 5 and 6, 1995

  

  August 5, 1995 My race for developing the mighty computer continues. By all indications, I should be in a small room with pads on all the walls, so I don’t hurt myself. As it is, I have several bruises and cuts on my hands and arms from hitting assorted items around the room. I’m sure…

  Brian Kirwan

  January 10, 2023

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  1995, 32-bit, anger management problems, Circuit City, clothes, computer, computer nerd, courage, crazy, dateless nerd, Disney, find a girl, frustrating, future wife, hard drive, hurt throat, I should do, I want to do, I/O card, lists, nerd, painting, shy, sleeping room, thoughts, weight set