Tag: health

• Emergency Rooms, CT Scans, and Old Habits – Thoughts from February 29, 2024

  

  It’s leap day or leap year or however you say it. I’m at the emergency room with Patti. She woke up and was blind in her right eye. Eventually, she could see out of the top of her eye, but the lower half was gray and blocking her sight. Because Patti is Patti, she drove…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 24, 2024

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  2024, admitted to the hospital, alarms, be honest or be silent, bean dip, blind in her right eye, cat scan, cats, CT scan, denial, doctor, emergency room, feelings, freezing room, Fritos, health, health problems, hospital gowned, ignoring health with humor, leap year, mixed emotions, mixed nuts, mom cat, nurse, ophthalmology, overnight in the hospital, Patti, person who gets sick, phone by the bed, physical tests, quiting smoking, raisins, Scout, silence, smoke related health problems, smoking, stroke, strokes, thoughts, TV as a nightlight, work

• Sugar Makes Me Fat – Thoughts from July 23, 2022

  

  Today I feel fat. I’ve felt fat because my scale said I was fat. My stomach feels like someone attached a sandbag to the inside of my skin. All of this fat shaming is to say that I need to change my routine on my days off. I’ve said this before and here I am…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 14, 2023

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  “fat”, 2022, cats, change of routine, comfort, compromised health, control myself, days off, eating, enabler, fat shaming, fatness, feeling judged, getting around, habit, happiness, happy, health, hearing, hearing about yourself from others, high sugar items, I feel fat, I’m a mess, ice cream, indecision, judging, new creations, old creations, over-weight, Patti, reading, sugar, talking to myself, thoughts, Thoughts papers, time at home, weight, words, writing

• Covid-19 – Thoughts from May 30 and June 23, 2022

  

  May 30, 2022 Today started out crappy. I got a negative comment about the book The New Jim Crow about how racism has changed since the days of Jim Crow laws, but it still exists. The comment simply said, “ridiculous.” It was from an older man with Air Force on his baseball cap. Originally, I…

  Brian Kirwan

  October 24, 2023

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  200 pounds, 2020, 2021, 2022, ads, Aire Force, anger, attractive, bad behavior, baseball cap, blocking people, book, boost post, bratty celebrity, Brian Creates, cheating foods, COVID tests, Covid-19, creating, dozen donuts, eating, giving up, grocery shopping, hate, health, idiots, ignorance, Memorial Day, my behavior, negative comment, no political or social commentary ads, not my normal diet, not wearing my mask, pat the consequences, Patti, racism, Reality Acceptance, reality denial, regular breakfast, regular vegan diet, rejected post, sad songs playlist, San Francisco, sugar, symptoms, tested negative, The New Jim Crow, thoughts, Thoughts papers, throw out unhealthy food, vacation, vegan, vegetables, wish me skill

• Did You Do Anything Fun Today? – Thoughts from April 23 and 24, 2022

  

  April 23, 2022 I asked Patti in a text if she did anything fun today and she said, “Like what?” That’s not exactly what she typed, but I wouldn’t be able to capitalize anything or use punctuation correctly to truly represent it. I would probably get a similar response from other people if I asked…

  Brian Kirwan

  October 3, 2023

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  2022, apathy, boring people, brain is rebelling, cold, conversations, cranky Brian, days off, do not like metaphors, emotionally, emotions, facinated, feeling, fun, fun people, fun things, getting through the day, God, happiness, have fun, headache, health, ignore life, Jesus, joke around, lack of dreams, lack of sleep, metaphorical crap, missing sleep, non-relatable, non-religious, Patti, religious, short rewards, sinus headaches, sleep, soul music, soulmate, souls, spirit, staring at their phones, text, the body is complex, thoughts, weather

• Wearing Masks – Thoughts from April 13 and 15, 2022

  

  April 13, 2022 I listened to this book that was a scientific look at sex. I told Patti some of the interesting and weird stuff from it, but I didn’t tell her about any of the female stuff. It seems to be a sensitive topic for her. It’s been growing in sensitivity for years. I…

  Brian Kirwan

  September 26, 2023

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  “I believe …”, 2022, actors, American version, anti-competition, atheist, behind-the-scenes, beliefs, believe in Santa Claus, believing in yourself, caring about others, changing diet, diary, evidence, exercise, future note, grocery store, health, interesting, knowing yourself, knowledge, losing weight, masks, not guessing, not wearing masks, Patti, scientific, sensitivity, sex, should be, soda, solve issues, stuborn, stupid man talk, sugar, talking, The Office, thoughts, Thoughts paper, Trump, vaccinated, wearing masks, weird, weird thoughts, what is, writing

• Stressed Smile – Thoughts from March 28 and April 1, 2022

  

  March 28, 2022 I’ve been working on adding exercises and examples to my book. It has added about ten thousand words to it. I look forward to the day when I will have to explain what book I’m working on, but I only have the one right now. I would love to have time to…

  Brian Kirwan

  September 19, 2023

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  2022, accepting reality, angry, April Fool’s Day, bad behavior, beliefs, confrontation, coworker, creative thoughts, defensive, disagreement, evidence, fake story, fear, fighting realities, fooling people, future note, general subjects, happier life, health, health problems, identities, ignorance, lack of enthusiasm, lying to others, male, my book, Nerd Mouse, not a programmer, other people, plugins, Reality Acceptance, reality denial statements, religious, rich, running from realities, specific knowledge, staff of people, stressed, thoughts, Thoughts papers, unhappy, website, white, words, writing

• I’m a Bit Much – Thoughts from February 19 and 20, 2022

  

  February 19, 2022 I’m sitting in a van and the mileage on it is 77077. Excited doesn’t even state how much that delights me. Patti and I went to a casino yesterday, and I walked out $60 richer. This is about equal to that. I just began my workday about two hours ago and it’s…

  Brian Kirwan

  August 29, 2023

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• Brian Explains Boredom and Change – Thoughts from October 15 and 22

  

  October 15, 2010 Brian Explains: Boredom Some people have a hard time being alone. I am not one of those people. I can be alone for hours and I always find something to do. The hardest part for me is deciding what to do. I guess this makes this an anti-explanation of boredom, but I…

  Brian Kirwan

  June 29, 2023

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