Tag: dreams

• Route 66, Dreams, and Second Breakfast – Thoughts from September 19, 2024

  

  My last morning in the Roswell hotel began with a dream. I was walking up a cluttered stairwell with my mom and a cousin of ours. The cousin and I were kids. My mom was younger and could walk up and down the stairs easily. This was not the reality for my mom, especially in…

  Brian Kirwan

  September 16, 2025

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  1938, 2024, albuquerque, bad dream, box of Lego, breakfast, businessperson, Californian, collecting Lego, cowboy hat and lasso, dad, defying expectations, desert lizard, dream mom, dream yelling, dreams, El Rancho hotel, eye mask, finding a channel to sleep to, freeway, Gallop New Mexico, home of the movie stars, Jack Oakie, Lego, Lego pieces, Lucille Ball, mom, New Mexico, old Hollywood, old-fashioned metal key, Patti, Petrified Forest, petrified tree, Roswell New Mexico, Route 66, second breakfast, sit anywhere, sleeping in hotels, stairs, state motto, steakhouse, tepee hotel, The Affairs of Annabel, thoughts, toys, travels, vacation foods, Waffle House, waffles butter and syrup, writing, yelling

• Birth, Falling, and Our Stories – Thoughts from April 27, 2024

  

  The biggest thing that happened today is the birth of our nephew and his wife’s baby boy. I’m really hoping I can reword that first sentence when I edit this Thoughts paper. Now that I’ve mentioned wanting to edit it, I’ll have to leave it as it is so you can see what I’m talking…

  Brian Kirwan

  February 18, 2025

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  2024, addiction, baby birth, baby boy, bad-ass look, behavior to avoid, being a good person, being clumsy, birthmark, black eye, brighter news, competition, cooperation, dad, developing my writing, diabetes, dreams, dying of alcoholism, dying of smoking, falling, falling on stairs, grandfather, group pride, labor, memoirs and autobiographies, mom, my story, nephew, no cigarettes, non-presence, not smoking, Patti, people’s stories, permanent markings, pride and shame, probing, publishing a blog, quiting smoking, quitting for good, religion, see a doctor, serious falls, seven deadly sins, the word pride, thoughts, Thoughts paper, trimming the bushes, writing

• Jamaican Dreams, Crackers, and Endings – Thoughts from June 19 and 20, 2023

  

  June 19, 2023 As I woke up in Jamaica this morning, I remembered two dreams. They seemed like one long dream, but I realized they were two separate dreams. The best titles for them would be Lazy Zombies and Flying Hamster Friend. I wrote them down so I could eventually develop them as stories. Perhaps…

  Brian Kirwan

  June 11, 2024

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  2023, animal friends, anti-fish, big cage, blind in one eye, Bloody Cesar, Bloody Mary, bored birds, breakfast special, Clamato juice, Crackers, diary, dreams, exercising while on vacation, feeling down, fishy dish, flying hamster, glasses, Jamaica, journal, judging eyes, knowing the servers, last full day of vacation, Mad Max character, Mai Tai, memoirs, mohawk, nude beach, omelet, parrot, partiers, Patti, pool volleyball, red necks, resort photographer, stories, story of our life, swimming, thoughts, Thoughts papers, tomato juice, vacation, Vacation Land, zombies

• Dream Rules – Thoughts from August 24, 2018

  

  Future note: I listed the rules of my dreams in this Thoughts paper. Enjoy. Okay, maybe I should supply a little bit more of an explanation. These rules represent the things I know are possible while I’m dreaming. They are things I know I can do and things I know I can’t do. I have…

  Brian Kirwan

  August 15, 2023

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  2018, actor, anxieties, anxiety, being chased, can’t do it, can’t yell, catching me, character, colors, directing my dreams, director, don’t see my real self, dream, dream colors, dream people, dream rules, dreaming, dreams, float up slowly, floating, flying, future note, help-asking machine, no running, people represent other people, playing a character, red is bad, seeing myself, story, strangers, thoughts, Thoughts paper, voice restricted, wake up yelling, wetting the bed, writing my dreams

• Wires to Nowhere – Thoughts from September 2, 2003

  

  Good morning and welcome to life in the doldrums. I can barely keep myself awake. I’m working at the Assessor’s office. Working here is so dull (how dull is it?), (it’s so dull) I’m using my “boredom sucks” protest signs to hold open my eyelids. Even that last sentence shows how bored and tired I…

  Brian Kirwan

  May 9, 2023

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  2003, AOL, assisted living, bored, cable, dial-up, dining area, dining partner, dreams, DSL, dull job, good morning is a misnomer, humor, mom, older gentleman with tattoos, painting, parlines and cream, Patti, phone line, picture frame bolted to the wall, pralines and cream, roommate, rumpus room, so many screws, thoughts, tired, too religious, weird, wire the house, wires to nowhere

• Thoughts from April 17 and 25, 2001

  

  April 17, 2001 This is my thought for the day (and I have more where that came from). I just need to get it out because they’re hurting my brain. I’m waiting for time to pass. Don’t get me wrong, I love sitting around waiting for the day to pass. It fills up a day…

  Brian Kirwan

  February 7, 2023

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• December 1, 1992 – Journal Assignment 2

  

  This journal entry comes from a Psychology 115 class I had in college. I mixed it in with my Thoughts papers because it represents my only thoughts from 1992. Each week, we were asked to write about specific aspects of our lives. For that reason, this is probably my most organized series of thoughts. I…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 13, 2022

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