Tag: competition

• Birth, Falling, and Our Stories – Thoughts from April 27, 2024

  

  The biggest thing that happened today is the birth of our nephew and his wife’s baby boy. I’m really hoping I can reword that first sentence when I edit this Thoughts paper. Now that I’ve mentioned wanting to edit it, I’ll have to leave it as it is so you can see what I’m talking…

  Brian Kirwan

  February 18, 2025

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  2024, addiction, baby birth, baby boy, bad-ass look, behavior to avoid, being a good person, being clumsy, birthmark, black eye, brighter news, competition, cooperation, dad, developing my writing, diabetes, dreams, dying of alcoholism, dying of smoking, falling, falling on stairs, grandfather, group pride, labor, memoirs and autobiographies, mom, my story, nephew, no cigarettes, non-presence, not smoking, Patti, people’s stories, permanent markings, pride and shame, probing, publishing a blog, quiting smoking, quitting for good, religion, see a doctor, serious falls, seven deadly sins, the word pride, thoughts, Thoughts paper, trimming the bushes, writing

• Operation Jamaican Vacation: The Anniversary Part – Thoughts from June 13 to 15, 2023

  

  June 13, 2023 Day two of operation Jamaican vacation, but it feels like day one. We were too tired to vacation yesterday. I had a dream where I was petting a seal. This was probably from me missing Luna laying on top of me and our daily rubbing exercise. I rub her and she tries…

  Brian Kirwan

  June 4, 2024

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  2023, anniversary, annoying behavior, breakfast, competition, Competition ruins everything, crabs, daily rubbings, drinking beer, human cat dad, humpapa, Jamaica, Jamaican vacation, long pants or shorts, male peacock, missing the cats, music trivia, New Orleans, operation Jamaican vacation, Patti, Patti and Brian, peachicks, peacock kids, peacock mom, peahen, pool volleyball, Queen, Queen songs, quiting smoking, repeaters dinner, school of fish, secluded beach, shallow ocean by the beach, smoking, Southerners, sweating, sweating is my hobby, sweating profusely, swimming, thoughts, Thoughts paper, translucent skin, trash talk, Vacation Destination, vacations without smoking, veggie bar, wedding song, What a Wonderful World

• Grocery Scanner – Thoughts from December 3 and 4, 2022

  

  December 3, 2022 Patti came in with me to work today so she could go into the park. We stopped by a local Walmarket on the way in. As spell check reminds me, Walmarket is not its real name, but that’s what we call it. I needed blueberries and hair gel. The hair gel was…

  Brian Kirwan

  February 8, 2024

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  2022, avoid buying organic, bad at suicide, beliefs, blueberries, commiting suicide, competition, depression, escalator, feeling alone, hair gel, hate, helping each other, ignoring mental health, loneliness, loud bang, low self-esteem, major problem in society, man jumped, mental health, mental state, organic, parking structure, Patti, scanning items, self-checkout, selfish act, suicidal thoughts, suicide, thoughts, tragedy, unacceptable item, Walmarket, Walmart Market, wasting time, work

• Writer Dude Stories – Thoughts from July 24, 2022

  

  We have a new person who works in our department who I hardly ever see because she works mornings and I work at night. I told her, “I hardly ever see you. Tell me something interesting about yourself.” She told me about her past jobs and that one of her sons has autism. She talked…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 16, 2023

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  2022, anxieties, athletes, autism, autistic, autistic child, autistic traits, backstories, boring jobs, boring story, care about people, cats, characters, competition, conflicts, cooperation, dull people, embarassment, feminine qualities, fictional stories, happily ever after, humor, judgements against strangers, judging, new person, perfect and boring, positive attitude, positivity, reality, ridged thinking, singular focus, something interesting about you, sports, stories, story with no conflict, thought elephant in the room, thoughts, Thoughts papers, time, underdeveloped, wasn’t diagnosed, we all have stories, work, write your own thoughts, Writer Dude, writing

• Competition Man – Thoughts from March 5, 2022

  

  There’s something I’ve noticed recently. I’ve noticed it before, but I’ve seen several great examples of this recently. People of color, on the whole, are nicer and more pleasant than white people. Women and gay men are more pleasant than straight men, but I’ve noticed that for years. Why is it the most privileged among…

  Brian Kirwan

  September 5, 2023

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  2022, amusing story, barely tolerable, baseball, care about each other, cat dad, cats, competition, creative outlet, Dodgers, fun, fun conversation, hissing, more pleasant, most priveleged, most unpleasant, nothing in common, Patti, people of color, playing, playing games, politics, Quest, realities, Reality Acceptance, reality denying quotes, religion, Scout, staring creepily, straight men, though-provoking discussion, thoughts, white men, women

• Jamaica – Thoughts from February 19, 2019

  

  I’m in Jamaica on vacation. Specifically, I’m up at 4:00 AM on the balcony of our room eating nuts because I didn’t have anything to eat before I went to bed. At home, I have beans and rice before I go to bed and that keeps me full all night. On vacation, we eat and…

  Brian Kirwan

  August 17, 2023

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  2019, aggression, all-male team, arbitrary reasons, bad listeners, beans and rice, beers in hand, can’t sleep, competition, Competition ruins everything, Couples Resorts, drinking, eating nuts, entertainment, friends, future note, happiness, hungry, ignored me, Jamaica, married life, men, men versus women, our anniversary, play a game, story ideas, swim-up bar, team, team sports, thoughts, trauma, trivia, unsalted nuts, vacation, vulnerabilities, War Games, winning, women