Tag: beliefs

• Yelling Instructions and Open Caskets – Thoughts from January 27, 2023

  

  I’m terrible at non-creative tasks. If you tell me to create something or help figure something out, I can start thinking of possibilities right away. If you give me orders to follow, my brain panics and shuts down. I can memorize things on my own, but my conversational memory sucks. When I have written instructions,…

  Brian Kirwan

  March 21, 2024

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• Mythical New Year and Crying Babies – Thoughts from January 2, 2023

  

  Here we are in 2023. This is my first entry of the new year so you know it’s going to be good. I can say that because you’ll probably forget I said it by the end of reading this paper. As always, I’m going to live in the past for the first part. I was…

  Brian Kirwan

  March 7, 2024

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• Grocery Scanner – Thoughts from December 3 and 4, 2022

  

  December 3, 2022 Patti came in with me to work today so she could go into the park. We stopped by a local Walmarket on the way in. As spell check reminds me, Walmarket is not its real name, but that’s what we call it. I needed blueberries and hair gel. The hair gel was…

  Brian Kirwan

  February 8, 2024

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• Spandex Underwear – Thoughts from November 6 and 14, 2022

  

  November 6, 2022 I feel like most of the world caters to people who are not like me. I’m not religious, don’t like restaurants or fast food, care about other people, don’t believe in anything, don’t like live events, and don’t think simply about anything. On the outside, I’m of average height, weight, and looks…

  Brian Kirwan

  January 23, 2024

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• Cowboy Hats – Thoughts from September 10, 2022

  

  I saw someone working with a cowboy hat on today and I wanted to punch him in the face. While I would never actually punch someone in the face, it got me thinking about things people could wear that would let me know we could never be friends. I’m not talking about people who are…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 28, 2023

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• Fictional Stories of Belief – Thoughts from July 25, 2022

  

  I had a thought as I was driving to work, and I sent myself a note about it. I will now expound upon it in the storage locker of my thoughts. It continues my previous musing about telling your story. Your beliefs are not part of your story so you should not include them when…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 21, 2023

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• Fourth of July Fireworks – Thoughts from July 3 and 5, 2022

  

  July 3, 2022 Yesterday was my birthday, and I celebrated with sushi and gambling. It was the big five two. It was my last day of being off from work with COVID. I’m back to work today. I always worry that my ID won’t work when I’ve been off for a while, but it worked…

  Brian Kirwan

  October 26, 2023

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• Wearing Masks – Thoughts from April 13 and 15, 2022

  

  April 13, 2022 I listened to this book that was a scientific look at sex. I told Patti some of the interesting and weird stuff from it, but I didn’t tell her about any of the female stuff. It seems to be a sensitive topic for her. It’s been growing in sensitivity for years. I…

  Brian Kirwan

  September 26, 2023

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• Stressed Smile – Thoughts from March 28 and April 1, 2022

  

  March 28, 2022 I’ve been working on adding exercises and examples to my book. It has added about ten thousand words to it. I look forward to the day when I will have to explain what book I’m working on, but I only have the one right now. I would love to have time to…

  Brian Kirwan

  September 19, 2023

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• Restroom Habits – Thoughts from March 6, 2022

  

  I have to write immediately because it just happened. Two things I question in the men’s restroom habits just happened one after the other. Someone came into the restroom and washed his hands. When he was done, he walked over to the urinal. This is just the first thing I have questioned in the past.…

  Brian Kirwan

  September 7, 2023

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