Tag: addiction

• Sleeping In, Addictions, and Being a Control Freak – Thoughts from February 24, 2025

  

  The best way to start this Thoughts paper is just to start it. I have many things I want to talk about, but don’t know where to begin. The ongoing saga of working on the house continues. I have a few pieces of trim to fix, but we’re down to just finishing the painting. The…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 23, 2025

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  2024, addiction, alcoholics, Alcoholics Anonymous, belief in a higher power, Christian based organization, cigarette pack, completist, craving sugar, dad smoked, denial, drinking too much, fixing the trim, flood of emotions, holding them to get through cravings, I’m an atheist, illicit drugs, meetings held in churches, mental health, mentionaing God, mini vacation, Narcotics Anonymous, nerds, non-religious, non-religious programs for addiction recovery, not in control, painting, Patti, proof of denial, pure sugar, sleeping late, smoking, social drinker, substance take control, sugar addiction, thinking clearly, thoughts, Thoughts paper, too much of a control freak, under the influence of a substance, weight goes up, working on the house

• Mormons, Caffeine, and BFFs – Thoughts from May 22 and 25, 2024

  

  May 22, 2024 Yesterday, a fellow employee retired. He retired from his primary job a while ago and this was his retirement job. Now he’s fully retired from all jobs. Patti is still retired and still not smoking. I never really had a plan for retirement. I will never see myself as a retired person…

  Brian Kirwan

  March 18, 2025

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  2024, addiction, alcoholics, audiobooks, BFF, BFFs, blind spot, books, caffeinated soda, Caffeine, cancer, Church of Lies, create and edit, creating things, develop ideas, diet soda, FLDS Mormon church, Flora Jessop, get away from religion, getting enough sleep, getting healthy, horrible behavior, husband should not be your best friend, leaving religious thinking, modern fantasy, Mormons, Mormonsixm, never be retired, non-smoker, not a fan of religion, opposite work schedules, patriarchy, Patti, polygamist community, quitting smoking, retired, retirement job, routine, Santa, science fiction, taking health seriously, thoughts, Thoughts paper

• Birth, Falling, and Our Stories – Thoughts from April 27, 2024

  

  The biggest thing that happened today is the birth of our nephew and his wife’s baby boy. I’m really hoping I can reword that first sentence when I edit this Thoughts paper. Now that I’ve mentioned wanting to edit it, I’ll have to leave it as it is so you can see what I’m talking…

  Brian Kirwan

  February 18, 2025

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  2024, addiction, baby birth, baby boy, bad-ass look, behavior to avoid, being a good person, being clumsy, birthmark, black eye, brighter news, competition, cooperation, dad, developing my writing, diabetes, dreams, dying of alcoholism, dying of smoking, falling, falling on stairs, grandfather, group pride, labor, memoirs and autobiographies, mom, my story, nephew, no cigarettes, non-presence, not smoking, Patti, people’s stories, permanent markings, pride and shame, probing, publishing a blog, quiting smoking, quitting for good, religion, see a doctor, serious falls, seven deadly sins, the word pride, thoughts, Thoughts paper, trimming the bushes, writing

• Christmas Weight and Other Random Subjects – Thoughts from December 29, 2022

  

  December 29, 2022 During all the Christmas eating, I gained six pounds. I do it every year during Christmas. My regular eating habits are such that I can lose it relatively easily. We still have New Years Eve coming up so it will probably go back up again. I feel crappy when my weight goes…

  Brian Kirwan

  March 5, 2024

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  2022, addiction, boring conversations, Christmas eating, Christmas weight, cigarettes, conversations with strangers, COVID, eating habits, filling the holes of my life, genuine happiness, health problems, my dad, New Years Eve, Patti, pleasure, politics, random subject generator, religion and sex, restroom, sedentary lives, smoking, start conversations, stress, thoughts, touchy subjects, undiscussed problems, unhealthy foods, unhealthy people