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• One’s Self, Avoiding Pecans, and Painting Mishaps – Thoughts from March 27, 2025

  

  March 27, 2025 Here we are again. I’m at the Honda dealer, waiting to get my car serviced. It sounds like I’m waiting for my car outside a brothel, but you need to get your mind out of the gutter. Why you, the future reader of these words, would plant that in my mind, I…

  Brian Kirwan

  January 6, 2026

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  2025, allergy list, allergy to pecans, angled beams on a carport, artist’s steady hand, avoiding using tape on the trim, English, English Composition degree, future problem, grammatical rules, Honda dealer, if ignorance is bliss I’d rather me miserable, ladder height, mixed nuts, not normal on the inside, nut mix, oil-based paint, older house, one’s self, painter’s tape, painting the house, painting trim, painting with a file folder on trim, Patti, peanuts, primer, rain, singular and plural pronouns, singular pronoun one, snacks, soreness in my throat, tape removed paint, they his or her, they is plural, thoughts, two-person job, uncomfortable on ladders

• First Surgery, Allergy Apps, and Drinking the Costco Lemonade – Thoughts from March 23, 2025

  

  There’s so much I haven’t talked about in these Thoughts papers; I don’t know where to begin. The biggest thing going on in my life is being scheduled for my first surgery. On May 22, I will have that first surgery. I am augmenting my nose to be even larger. Actually, I’m getting the polyp…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 30, 2025

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  2025, additives, allergy app, allergy list, allergy restrictions, Costco, Costco membership, eggs, first surgery, granola bars, grocery list, grocery store, interaction with employees, milk, monthly cost, Patti, pecans, polyp on my vocal cord, problem foods, produce, reactivity, Sam's Club, scan and go app, self-check machines, snack foods, study the ingredients, thoughts, Thoughts papers, throat doctor, wheat

• Sleeping In, Addictions, and Being a Control Freak – Thoughts from February 24, 2025

  

  The best way to start this Thoughts paper is just to start it. I have many things I want to talk about, but don’t know where to begin. The ongoing saga of working on the house continues. I have a few pieces of trim to fix, but we’re down to just finishing the painting. The…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 23, 2025

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  2024, addiction, alcoholics, Alcoholics Anonymous, belief in a higher power, Christian based organization, cigarette pack, completist, craving sugar, dad smoked, denial, drinking too much, fixing the trim, flood of emotions, holding them to get through cravings, I’m an atheist, illicit drugs, meetings held in churches, mental health, mentionaing God, mini vacation, Narcotics Anonymous, nerds, non-religious, non-religious programs for addiction recovery, not in control, painting, Patti, proof of denial, pure sugar, sleeping late, smoking, social drinker, substance take control, sugar addiction, thinking clearly, thoughts, Thoughts paper, too much of a control freak, under the influence of a substance, weight goes up, working on the house

• Mini-Vacations, V Day, and New Obsessions – Thoughts from February 16, 2025

  

  Patti and I are back from our mini-vacation and we’re still working on the house. We’re down to painting and fixing some of the trim. It’s going to feel weird when we finish everything. The first day I don’t have to set the alarm to get up on my days off is going to be…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 16, 2025

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  2025, anime action figure, baseball cap, Benihana, cabinets, carpet, cats, concierge level, giant bowl of a drink, giant trash bag filled with stuffed animals, Grand Californian, jam-packed with people, kitchen, leaking water heater, lounge, mini vacation, My Hero Academia, my obsession with the show, Patti, Pixar Place Hotel, rain, rain kept people away, rainy day, renovated, seats by the bar, set the alarm to get up, shopping for Disney stuff, stuff we got on vacation, thoughts, tiling, Valentine's Day, waiting in line, working on the house, yard work

• New Years, Old Jobs, and The Wedding Song – Thoughts from December 29, 2024 to January 26, 2025

  

  December 29, 2024 The year is ending in two days. There are several things I’m looking forward to in 2025. My last loan payment will be at the end of February. In March, I’ll have been at Disney for 20 years. That will mean my vacation and sick time earned will go up. When I…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 9, 2025

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  2024, 2025, all we need is time, allergies, allergy to wheat, artificial intelligence, artificial singers, backup singers, being busy, building the shed, cats, consequences, creating a harmony, Disney for 20 years, disposing old shed, electric guitar, extended deadline, fixing the house, food allergies, four cats, future note, general scratchy feeling in my throat, giant chocolate chip cookie, June 14 1997, lifetime pass to Disneyland, looking forward, lyrics, married, meatball sandwiches, mobile home, my AI voice could sing, no downtime, no more wheat, Patti, reality, recorded main voice, retirement, retiring, singing, strangers around the house, The Wedding Song, thoughts, Thoughts paper, throat problems, tired, wedding march, working on song

• Out with the Old Shed, In with the New – Thoughts from December 27, 2024

  

  This entry was not actually written on the 27th, but let’s pretend that it was. Patti and I had been working on the outside of the house and now it was time to put in the new shed in the backyard. Step one of putting in the new shed was deconstructing the old shed. Some…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 2, 2025

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  2024, backyard, base for the shed, baseboards, blowing down in the wind, brought out the leveler, chainsaw, deconstructing, falling apart, fighting wind, flat in all directions, flimsy material, flimsy plastic panels, floppy wall panels, large and solid, let’s pretend, little wooden house, new shed, not flat, old shed, Patti, pieces of the shed, pile of wood, proper floor, proper shed, roots of a tree, screw the flooring to the base, sweat, thoughts, trash days, various sizes of poop, windiness, wood base, working on house

• Christmas, Cats, and a New Cat Tree – Thoughts from December 25, 2024

  

  Just as Christmas Eve was mainly about our niece and nephew’s new baby, Christmas Day was about Scout and her three kittens. Actually, it’s about Scout and her only slightly younger than her adult cats. Until next July, Scout is four and Beatrix, Luna, and Willow are three. Beatrix is about the same size as…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 25, 2025

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  2024, Beatrix, big cats, Blaze, boxes, building cat tree, can’t handle their own weight, cat dad, cats, cats had destroyed it, Christmas Day, covered in sweat, custom Funko Pop!, disassembly, followed instructions step by step, four cats in one house, Funko, Funko characters, House of Cat, Luna, new cat tree, old cat tree, other pets, Patti, piles of stuff, pink cat tree, pink house, presents, Quest, regulate cats food, Scout, Scout’s boys, season for cat trees, Slash, sturdiness, supervising cats, thoughts, time to get used to, toys, Willow, wish list, wrapping paper

• Things Not Said, No Shoes, and Happy Holidays – Thoughts from December 24, 2024

  

  For Christmas Eve, Patti and I went to our niece and nephew’s house. Patti’s sister, three of her sister’s sons, and an assortment of other people like me were there. Patti’s grandniece (a term I had to look up) was there, which I only mention because she was the adoptive parent of one of Scout’s…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 18, 2025

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  2024, age ranges, caring about each other, Christianity, Christmas Eve, Christmas time, conservative, Conservatives, fectional story, generations, getting together with family and friends, grandniece, Happy Holidays, issues, Judaism, liberal, liberals, Merry Christmas, modern world, nativity scenes, new baby, no drama, no shoes, no shoes inside, non-believers, non-religious, old nerd, other ways of thinking, out of touch with reality, Patti, political subjects, politics, provoke believers, religion, religious decorations, religious traditions, Santa Claus, Scout, shoes or slippers, six kittens, socks only, socks with no holes, technology, things not said, thoughts, uncomfortable silences

• Downness, Home Repairs, and New Computers – Thoughts from December 18, 2024

  

  As usual, I haven’t been writing my Thoughts papers recently and I’ve been feeling down recently. Part of my “downness” stems from a document from our mobile home park detailing what is wrong with the outside of our house. The main and most difficult parts have to do with how run-down the paint is on…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 11, 2025

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  2024, avoiding sunset at 5:00 pm, Christmas holiday, consequences, evaluating the house, I work best alone, It warms my nerdy heart, Microsoft Surface Pro, mobile home park, money for supplies, need a new shed, nerdiness, new computer, official end date, old computer, painting the house, reassessing the house, recommended replacement date, repairs, replacing heavy panels on the house, setting up programs, thoughts, Thoughts papers, transferring files, trimming large tree, Windows 10, Windows 11, working nights

• Cheating, Unhappy Wives, and Eating Together – Thoughts from November 25 and December 2, 2024

  

  November 25, 2024 I’ve never cheated on Patti, and I never will. I’m sure I’ve had opportunities, but I’ve probably missed them by being clueless to such things. If someone was willing to cheat on Patti with me, I wouldn’t want to be with them anyway. My flirting game is virtually nonexistent. I never really…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 4, 2025

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  2024, characters in the songs, cheating, cheating at work, cheating on his wife, Cher’ autobiography, compromise, cutting my hair, disturbing image, early song, eating at the dinner table regularly, eating at the same time, feeling guilty, finding a better person, flirting game, glad not to be an adult, going to a prostitute, good hair day, Goodby to My Soul, haircut, hanging out, low life expectancy, mullet hair, my walk, never dated, non-romantic, non-working oven, Patti, picturing myself with a wife, posture, putting up with crap, smoker’s laugh, song wife, songwriting days, surrounded by cheaters, Thanksgiving, therapy, thoughts, traditional dates, unhappy wives, wife passes away