Thoughts from Life – Brian Kirwan has thoughts, and these are them.

Thoughts from Life

Downness, Home Repairs, and New Computers – Thoughts from December 18, 2024

As usual, I haven’t been writing my Thoughts papers recently and I’ve been feeling down recently. Part of my “downness” stems from a document from our mobile home park detailing what is wrong with the outside of our house. The main and most difficult parts have to do with how run-down the paint is on…

Brian Kirwan

November 11, 2025

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2024, avoiding sunset at 5:00 pm, Christmas holiday, consequences, evaluating the house, I work best alone, It warms my nerdy heart, Microsoft Surface Pro, mobile home park, money for supplies, need a new shed, nerdiness, new computer, official end date, old computer, painting the house, reassessing the house, recommended replacement date, repairs, replacing heavy panels on the house, setting up programs, thoughts, Thoughts papers, transferring files, trimming large tree, Windows 10, Windows 11, working nights
Cheating, Unhappy Wives, and Eating Together – Thoughts from November 25 and December 2, 2024

November 25, 2024 I’ve never cheated on Patti, and I never will. I’m sure I’ve had opportunities, but I’ve probably missed them by being clueless to such things. If someone was willing to cheat on Patti with me, I wouldn’t want to be with them anyway. My flirting game is virtually nonexistent. I never really…

Brian Kirwan

November 4, 2025

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2024, characters in the songs, cheating, cheating at work, cheating on his wife, Cher’ autobiography, compromise, cutting my hair, disturbing image, early song, eating at the dinner table regularly, eating at the same time, feeling guilty, finding a better person, flirting game, glad not to be an adult, going to a prostitute, good hair day, Goodby to My Soul, haircut, hanging out, low life expectancy, mullet hair, my walk, never dated, non-romantic, non-working oven, Patti, picturing myself with a wife, posture, putting up with crap, smoker’s laugh, song wife, songwriting days, surrounded by cheaters, Thanksgiving, therapy, thoughts, traditional dates, unhappy wives, wife passes away
Horrible People, Gravelly Throats, and Autobiographies – Thoughts from November 9 to 23, 2024

November 9, 2024 I need to write now more than ever, but I’m afraid of what I’m going to say. When Patti and I took our trip along Route 66, there were Trump signs almost every mile as we drove. We knew there was a huge section of America that ignored every horrible thing Trump…

Brian Kirwan

October 28, 2025

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2024, acid reducer, addictions, avoiding family members, being abused, Brian Wilson autobiography, comedy autobiographies, conceptual and performance artist, dietary restrictions, documentary, get it lasered off, gravelly voice, hateful renaissance, HBO, Laughlin, Marina Abramović, medication, medication helping?, mental health issues, misinformation and hate, miss singing in the car, music-making, musical process, negative influence, Patti, people rewarded for horrible behavior, prescription, prescription strength, progress, Republicans, Route 66, stomach pain, Thanksgiving, The Artist is Present, The Beach Boys, thoughts, throat doctor, torture herself for art, Trump signs, vocal cord polyp, worst of the worst people, worst President in history
First Surgeries, Allergies, and Pleasant Eating – Thoughts from November 2, 2024

Before I left for work today, I got a call from Kaiser to schedule the appointment to treat my throat and plan the removal of the polyp on my vocal cord. Honestly, I didn’t know if I was going to be scheduling the procedure itself. I wasn’t. This is the checkup before the procedure. It…

Brian Kirwan

October 21, 2025

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2024, alcoholics, all the milks, almond milk, beef, beer, checkup, coconut, dairy, eggs, future note, hair analyzed for allergies, high reactivity, Kaiser, minor surgery, moderate reactivity, mustard, my first surgery, no broken bones, no major health problems, no reactivity, Oranges lemons and duck, pecans, pleasurable eating, reactivity test, remove the polyp on my vocal cord, restrictions on my diet, satisfied, smokers, taking health seriously, thoughts, throat problems, tomatoes, unpleasant surprise, veal, vegan diet, wheat, wheat is a major ingredient, work
Memories of Route 66, Anxieties, and Word Choices – Thoughts from October 12 and 20, 2024

October 12, 2024 I haven’t written a Thoughts paper in a while. Actually, that’s not true. Why am I lying to you? Because I can. I should say I haven’t written anything unplanned. Patti and I took a Route 66 trip that I wrote about, but I didn’t write the entries on the date I…

Brian Kirwan

October 14, 2025

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2024, a picture is worth a thousand words, airports, anxiety, anxious thoughts, arbitrary word choices, awkward, Couples Sans Souci, damaged emotions, dash cam, dash cam footage, easily triggered anxiety, electric bill, emotions, financial crisis, flying in a plane, heat of summer, images lead to memories, Jamaica, knowledge always wins over belief, only flying first class, Patti, Petrified Forest, realizing my error, Route 66 trip, snobbish rule, taking pictures, taking pictures throughout the day, thoughts, Thoughts paper, visual thinking, Wordscapes, wounded emotions, writing