Tag: Thoughts papers

• My First Surgery – Thoughts from June 1, 2025 – Part 1

  

  I used to have times when I struggled to find subjects for my Thoughts papers. Recently, I’ve had to make lists of subjects to write about, so I don’t forget things. When I started writing these back in 1991, I had less happening in my life. Who would guess I had more going on in…

  Brian Kirwan

  January 20, 2026

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  1991, 2025, anesthesia, anesthesia technician, cat claw marks, cat scratches, cats, clown miming skills, do not talk, dressing gown, ellipsis, giant beret, inability to speak, leave wedding ring at home, medication, my first surgery, naked behind a curtain, nurse asking questions, opened in the back, parents had any surgeries, Part 1, Patti, polyp removed from my vocal cord, reliving younger days, show of my life, stint into my vein, surgery cap, surgery veterans, thoughts, Thoughts papers, tying a dressing gown, undressed and hearing people, welcome distraction, Willow, writing

• First Surgery, Allergy Apps, and Drinking the Costco Lemonade – Thoughts from March 23, 2025

  

  There’s so much I haven’t talked about in these Thoughts papers; I don’t know where to begin. The biggest thing going on in my life is being scheduled for my first surgery. On May 22, I will have that first surgery. I am augmenting my nose to be even larger. Actually, I’m getting the polyp…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 30, 2025

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  2025, additives, allergy app, allergy list, allergy restrictions, Costco, Costco membership, eggs, first surgery, granola bars, grocery list, grocery store, interaction with employees, milk, monthly cost, Patti, pecans, polyp on my vocal cord, problem foods, produce, reactivity, Sam's Club, scan and go app, self-check machines, snack foods, study the ingredients, thoughts, Thoughts papers, throat doctor, wheat

• Downness, Home Repairs, and New Computers – Thoughts from December 18, 2024

  

  As usual, I haven’t been writing my Thoughts papers recently and I’ve been feeling down recently. Part of my “downness” stems from a document from our mobile home park detailing what is wrong with the outside of our house. The main and most difficult parts have to do with how run-down the paint is on…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 11, 2025

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  2024, avoiding sunset at 5:00 pm, Christmas holiday, consequences, evaluating the house, I work best alone, It warms my nerdy heart, Microsoft Surface Pro, mobile home park, money for supplies, need a new shed, nerdiness, new computer, official end date, old computer, painting the house, reassessing the house, recommended replacement date, repairs, replacing heavy panels on the house, setting up programs, thoughts, Thoughts papers, transferring files, trimming large tree, Windows 10, Windows 11, working nights

• Preparing for Vegas – Thoughts from April 6, 2024

  

  Patti and I drive out tomorrow to Las Vegas. She wants to leave the house at 11:00 am. You may consider that barely in the morning, but it’s what time I woke up this morning. I set the clock for 9:00 am so I can do some of my morning stuff. Yes, two hours is…

  Brian Kirwan

  January 21, 2025

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  2024, avoiding sweets, buffet, cats, cigarettes a day, cleaning litter boxes, cutting down smoking, drowning in the chocolate river, encouragement, entertaining thoughts, feeding cats, gaining weight, give away our room, hiding cats, Las Vegas, lost part of her sight, Patti, petting the cats, quit smoking, regular morning stuff, smoking less, thoughts, Thoughts papers, too drunk, vegan diet, Vegas trip, watching the cats, Willy Wonka’s chocolate factory, writing on vacation

• Contact Sports, Lesbians, and Streaming Services – Thoughts from February 11 to 25, 2024

  

  February 11, 2024 This is a day when I wish I hadn’t decided not to swear in my Thoughts papers. Today is Super Bowl Sunday (insert puke noise here). As usual on this day each year, there were a huge amount of A-holes on the freeway. At work, they had nachos, donuts, and cookies. I…

  Brian Kirwan

  December 10, 2024

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  2024, adulting, American football, baseball, boxing, cards with cats, Conservatives have power, contact sports, coughing, creating media, CTE (Chronic Traumatic Encephalopathy), Democrats and Republicans, discriminatory practices, Dr. Bennet Omalu, God she doesn’t believe in, inhumane sport, inventing religious beliefs, leaking water, lesbian, LGBTQ, Liberals have people, married adult, money hides reality, monthly subscriptions, my team, other people, our team, Patti, religious beliefs, replacing siding, sore throat, Streaming services, super bowl Sunday, thoughts, Thoughts papers, tonsil removal tools, Valentine's Day

• Knowing, Accepting, and Pointing Out My Thoughts – Thoughts from October 28 and 30, 2023

  

  October 28, 2023 “I don’t know why I did that.” I have never said this phrase unless I don’t want to admit why I’m doing something. The statement may come out of my mouth, but I always know why I do things. If I trip over something, I know why I tripped. Usually, the answer…

  Brian Kirwan

  September 24, 2024

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  2023, accepting all realities, admitting why, aware of what I’m doing, bad behavior, being appreciated, being distraced, believing the lies, cats, completely accepting, crap I accept, explaining my actions, hyper aware, I don’t know why I did that, I’m full of crap, ignorance, incorporating lies into personality, lying to yourself, not based on my opinion, Patti, people don’t want to accept reality, pointing out lies, professionals, proven realities, quantum physics reasoning, Reality Acceptance, RealityAcceptance.com, silly reasons, theoretical realities, thoughts, Thoughts papers, words being ignored

• Not Our Bunny or Our Holidays – Thoughts from October 21 and 22, 2023

  

  October 21, 2023 It’s time to talk about the bunny in our yard. I first saw him when I was mowing our lawn. I walked to our backyard, and I saw something hop away. Convinced that it was a hopping cat, I didn’t think too much of it. Patti asked me to look at something…

  Brian Kirwan

  September 17, 2024

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  1800s, 2023, bunny, bunny news, Christmas, Easter, editing, exaggerated humor, feeling old, garbage in the streets, Halloween, holiday months, honest as crap, hopping, horrible people, horse-drawn buggy, humorously exaggerated, illogical and rude, junk from holidays, median age, not our pet, Patti, pet rabbit, petting, psychics, psychics are liars, rabbit, sarcasm, stupid sandwich, Summer, thoughts, Thoughts papers, time fliest when you’re having fun, too honest, traveled back in time, typewriters, typewriting lessons, typing, ugly car with souped-up engine, white cars, white tail, white vehicles are work vehicles

• I’m a Cat Trapped in a Dog’s Body – Thoughts from September 24 and October 8, 2023

  

  September 24, 2023 Flourishing in my own filth is the first thing I typed for this Thoughts paper. Where do I go from there? There’s only one place to go. I’m going where I always go. Here we are in my usual talk of wondering when the world is going to stop being so predictable.…

  Brian Kirwan

  September 3, 2024

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  2023, autobiography, barrier to moving, book, bring up images, caring about other people, cat trapped in a dog’s body, comparing men to dogs, creativity, depressing thoughts, driving on the freeway, editing and scheduling, feminist author, hiatus from writing, I’m a Cat Trapped in a Dog’s Body, lack of time, men’s behavior, moving closer to my work, my own filth, not collecting new stuff, our stuff, Patti, plosives, problematic letters, retired, sibilance, suicide for horrible men, the word moist, the world is predictable, think like a cat, thinking, thoughts, Thoughts paper, Thoughts papers, tired of my stuff, wishing people dead, writing

• Kidney Stones and Vehicle Emblems – Thoughts from August 7 and 13, 2023

  

  August 7, 2023 I started feeling a pain in my lower back. When I noticed it was only on one side, I worried. I had kidney stones once in my life and I vowed never to get them again. A pain in only one side of your lower back is how it begins. The pain…

  Brian Kirwan

  July 30, 2024

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  2022, 2023, back pain, being distracted by pain, blog, Buick, Cadillac, Chrysler, constant distractions, dash cam videos, dealing with incidents, dehydration, distractions, drinking water, expensive vehicles, idiots on the freeway, ignoring problems, irregular circumstances, kidney stones, looking for problems, out of the ordinary, pain in my lower back, pain scale, Patti, preparing extra water, random subjects, reading, rude drivers, showering at night, showering in the morning, thoughts, Thoughts from Life, Thoughts papers, valuing other people, vehicle emblems, water shut off, water to drink, white river rafting, writing

• New People, Laundry, and Insecurities – Thoughts from August 5 and 6, 2023

  

  August 5, 2023 When I meet someone new at work, I try to find out work related things first and then move on to their interests. No one completely loses me with their interests, but I find myself less enthused about what some people find interesting. Sports is one of those things. Many people assume…

  Brian Kirwan

  July 25, 2024

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  2023, atheism, baseball fan, behind-the-scenes, being an atheist, blog, Brian Kirwan, difficult discussions, dislikes reveal insecurities, emotional distress, ethical problems, fake smiles, fears and emotional state, flaws are interesting, forwarding to Facebook, highly cultivated version of the world, interests, laundry night, lyrics, meet someone new, Patti, people hide interesting parts, perfect people are boring, perfection doesn’t exist, presenting your fake life, religion, religious discussions, religious phrases, religious symbols, songs are good despite their lyrics, sports, sports conversations, subjects of songs, texting, thoughts, Thoughts from Life, Thoughts paper, Thoughts papers, waiting on the towels, wife, WordPress postings