Tag: shy

• The Reality of Shyness – Thoughts from July 17 to 19, 2022

  

  July 17, 2022 It’s the birthday of the place I work. We have food trucks all over and they are giving burgers to all the employees. I gave my meal away to another employee and found out it was his third of the day. Someone else brought in donuts. I ate my regular food because…

  Brian Kirwan

  November 9, 2023

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  2022, alone, antidote to anxiety is knowledge, autism, book, burgers, complex realities, control myself, conversation about nothing, conversations, conversations with women, diverse knowledge, diverse people, donuts, favorite bosses were female, female teachers, food trucks, free food, genuine conversation, hate, hearing conversations, ignorance, knowledge, male teachers, men, misogyny, most men, my happiest and healthiest self, no point to the conversation, no politics, no religion, no sports, opposite of me, perspective on life, power and money, pro-science atheists, Reality Acceptance, reality denial, relatable topics, Sesame Street, Sesame Street for adults, shy, shy kid, shyness, social monster, teach about reality, TED Talk, The Highly Sensitive Person, the unknown, thoughts, Thoughts papers, trust women, website, welcoming, women, worries of youth, young and shy

• Fourth of July Fireworks – Thoughts from July 3 and 5, 2022

  

  July 3, 2022 Yesterday was my birthday, and I celebrated with sushi and gambling. It was the big five two. It was my last day of being off from work with COVID. I’m back to work today. I always worry that my ID won’t work when I’ve been off for a while, but it worked…

  Brian Kirwan

  October 26, 2023

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  2022, America, arguing, Beatrix, behavior, beliefs, birthday, boring conversation, cats, celebrating, certain subjects, Christians, confused, conversation, COVID, dangerous, extroverts, extroverts annoy me, facts, fireworks, fireworks in the sky, first fireworks, Fourth of July, freaked out, gambling, good Christian, good person, illegal, interesting subjects, introduce myself, known facts, less shy, logical, Luna, mental note, modern America, my ID, neighborhoods, new employees, new people, Patti, people’s baggage, people’s beliefs, playing fair, pride, pride is not good, proud of America, Quest, Scout, Scout staring at Quest, seven deadly sins, shy, shy people, shyness, sushi, the littles, thoughts, topics of conversation, undeserved pride, uninteresting conversations, useless topics, white men, Willow, worst behaved Americans

• Eye Twitching Holidays – Thoughts from November 17 to December 18, 2003

  

  November 17, 2003 My system had a minor crash again. I had worked on a song (a sad song), and it suddenly wouldn’t let me logon to Windows. After much ado, it’s back, but I’ve been saving all my songs in multiple locations – which I should have done before, but at least I’m doing…

  Brian Kirwan

  May 18, 2023

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  2003, alcoholism, always driving, animation, assisted living, back up, bad eating, being driven, California Adventure, Cameron, cause of death, Christmas, computer, dad, death certificate, Disneyland, driving, eye twitching, Grand Californian, Grand Canyon, holidays, mom, my songs, nephews, nerd, Nightmare Before Christmas, Paradise Pier Hotel, Patti, shy, shyness, Sister, smoking, soundtrack, stress, stress free, stressing out, system crash, Thanksgiving, the boys, thoughts, twins, Twisted Land of Oz

• Thoughts from August 5 and 6, 1995

  

  August 5, 1995 My race for developing the mighty computer continues. By all indications, I should be in a small room with pads on all the walls, so I don’t hurt myself. As it is, I have several bruises and cuts on my hands and arms from hitting assorted items around the room. I’m sure…

  Brian Kirwan

  January 10, 2023

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  1995, 32-bit, anger management problems, Circuit City, clothes, computer, computer nerd, courage, crazy, dateless nerd, Disney, find a girl, frustrating, future wife, hard drive, hurt throat, I should do, I want to do, I/O card, lists, nerd, painting, shy, sleeping room, thoughts, weight set