Tag: cayenne pepper

• Singing in the Car was My Downfall – Thoughts from August 17, 2024

  

  The first thing I must talk about is my doctor’s appointment to look at my throat. I finally got the camera down my throat and saw an image of my vocal cords. They gave me a numbing agent in my nose that went down my throat. Before they gave it to me, they asked if…

  Brian Kirwan

  July 22, 2025

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  2024, alcohol, ball on my vocal cord, camera down my throat, carbonated drinks, cayenne pepper, doctor’s appointment, gradual change, gross, moratorium on singing, my first surgery, nasal passage, nodules, numb nose, numbing agent, Patti, polyp on my vocal cord, singing in the car, straining my voice, thoughts, vocal cords

• Vacation PTSD and Loud Nerds – Thoughts from May 14 and 15, 2023

  

  May 14, 2023 I’m tired and cranky. It’s Mother’s Day, but that’s not why I’m cranky. Patti’s mom and my mom are no longer alive. It’s my life that’s feeling more and more out of control. Patti makes decisions for me, my work makes decisions, and time doesn’t allow me to make more than a…

  Brian Kirwan

  May 21, 2024

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  2023, acknowledge another human being, anniversary, cayenne pepper, dripping sweat, eating lunch, I told you that, ignoring other people, Jamaica, knocking my chair over, lack of decision making, life out of control, living without a say in our lives, loud conversation on phone, loud noise, lunch, lunch at night, making decisions, Mother's Day, my part in the plan, mysterious plans, Patti, plans, podcast, spicy meal, staring at their phones, steamed vegetables, sweating, talking on speaker phone, thoughts, tired and cranky, vacation, vacation PTSD, vacation time, vegetable lunch, visioning a plan is easy, young and nerdy