October 28, 2023
“I don’t know why I did that.” I have never said this phrase unless I don’t want to admit why I’m doing something. The statement may come out of my mouth, but I always know why I do things. If I trip over something, I know why I tripped. Usually, the answer is that something distracted me. When I hear people claim they didn’t know why they did something, I don’t believe them. Even when I’m tipsy, I’m aware of what I’m doing. There may be silly reasons behind my actions, but I can explain them. Being hyper aware of my thinking and my actions may seem annoying to some. I don’t know any other way. It’s normal to me.
Most people lie to themselves and others throughout their lives. I point out the lies people tell and those people usually find it annoying. These are people who know me, so they get used to it. Some people never take it well. They live their lives and incorporate the lies into their personality. It’s not a lie unless they are doing it maliciously. The lies we tell ourselves make the least sense to me. It’s easy to believe the lies of others, but how do you lie to yourself. If I do something that’s bad for me, there’s no lie I can tell myself that will soothe me. I have to deal with the bad behavior for what it is. Other people don’t seem to have this problem.
October 30, 2023
This is one of those Thoughts papers in which I have no clue what I’m going to talk about. The only things coming to mind are things I can’t write about if I want other people to read this. The only thing I can say is I’m in the CIA. It’s not the usual CIA, it’s a special version that’s called “Crap I Accept”. As far as I can tell, I’m the only person in it. There are things I accept about the world that other people don’t. I discussed all these things in my book, Reality Acceptance: For Happier and Healthier Lives. As it turns out, people don’t want to accept reality. Some people accept parts of it, but I seem to be the only one who accepts all realities. Now that I kind of have a topic, let’s move to the next paragraph.
The reason I can’t talk about the Crap I Accept is because no one wants to hear it. I haven’t found an audience who has ever been completely accepting of what I simply accept. Patti, friends, coworkers, and strangers think I’m full of crap. I can tell others about it as much as I like, but there are always realities they will not accept. I’m tempted to call them theoretical realities just so they will at least listen to what I have to say. There are professionals I can refer to for examples of proven realities, but they are not ready to reference in my brain. I can refer to them on the RealityAcceptance.com website, but people don’t want to wait for me to consult it in the middle of a conversation. I only hope that people accept what I say and know it is not based on my opinion. Perhaps people will never appreciate me in my own time. My cats appreciate me. That’s enough for now.
I was talking to someone the other day and pointing out that something he put in his truck was probably going to tip over in transit. He said it wasn’t likely. I said it’s not only likely, but I was positive it would tip over. We drove for a little while and it tipped over. You could hear it thudding on the floor of the truck. We opened up the back and there it was on its side. Its contents were strewn across the floor. He picked up the contents and put them back in the container. He claimed I caused it to happen because I mentioned it could fall. I hoped he was kidding, but knew he wasn’t the kind of person who kidded. He had a quantum physics reasoning for claiming that I caused it. I told him leaving something likely to tip over without fixing it was the reason it happened. He claimed I just didn’t understand quantum physics. My words being ignored was the reason it happened. Him ignoring them was the problem.
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