July 30, 2022
The past few days have been weird, but not in a good way. I had to sit still on a freeway for hours and eventually get off the freeway by driving the wrong way. I gained 3.7 pounds in one day (not my personal record, but close). The day before, I got glasses and a woman beside me was apologizing for crying. Today, I did an airport run. It’s been years since I’ve done one of those. Any of these events would have shut me down in the past, but I found all of them entertaining as stories to tell. I could actually find entertainment while I was experiencing these weird days. I feel like I’m finding out I’m a different person, but don’t know how long I’ve been this person. All I know is this person doesn’t have the same hang ups as that past person. I’m just wondering what I’m capable of doing now. I didn’t think I could do these things in the past, but now I can. It’s like having a superpower, but you don’t know the extent of what you can do with it.
I’ve been thinking about what I can do with my past Thoughts papers. I want to put them out as a blog and eventually a book. They could be in chronological order or by subject. There are advantages and disadvantages to each. If I put them out starting in 1991, I would have to add context that explains what was going on in my life at that time. If I put them out by subject, I would have to edit them together. Each will take time. (Future note: If you are reading this on the Thoughts from Life blog right now, you have an idea of what I went with. To know for sure, you would have to read it from the beginning. If this is you, a theoretical gold star is coming your way. It’s like theoretical internet money and just as non-existent.)
August 1, 2022
In a podcast today, they were talking about XX chromosomes which determine whether a human is female. XY chromosomes make someone a male, but they weren’t talking male people. My first thought was females are full of X chromosomes and males are half empty of them. They were talking about some females who have one mutated X chromosome getting a disease (it may not be a disease, but it was something bad). If only about 20% of the X chromosome was mutated, they would be okay, but many of them were autistic. It made me wonder how many of my feminine qualities come from autism. If I were a scientist, I would look for a connection between autism and X chromosomes. Whatever it is, I wouldn’t have it any other way. Reality is my friend.
Monogamy or not to monogamy? This was the question posed on a podcast talking about gay relationships. One guest said we (humans) are not wired for monogamy. I immediately skipped the episode. Since we are not robots, we are not wired at all. Of course, the implication is that we are wired for polygamy. The more people you are with, the less you can care about each person. Some people only have sex with other people without caring about most of them. They never make the connection between how little they care about other people and how little those people care about them. None of their relationships will last. This is my philosophy about having kids. The more kids you have, the less time you have for each child. Large groups of people will always be worse than small groups. Relationships suffer when you spend less time on them. The more people you are intimate with, the less intimate you will be with them.
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