Did You Do Anything Fun Today? – Thoughts from April 23 and 24, 2022

April 23, 2022

I asked Patti in a text if she did anything fun today and she said, “Like what?” That’s not exactly what she typed, but I wouldn’t be able to capitalize anything or use punctuation correctly to truly represent it. I would probably get a similar response from other people if I asked about their days off. Most people don’t do fun things throughout their day. The more I talk about happiness, the more I’m realizing most people don’t think about their own happiness. I look for ways to have fun all day. I try to be around fun people and add fun to whatever I’m doing. When I get to work and everyone is sitting around and staring at their phones, I get depressed for them and myself. It’s a cliché at this point. It represents the general apathy of most people.

I have a goal each day of being happy and healthy. That overarching goal carries me through my day. From what I can see, most people get through their day with short rewards that are not good for either their health or happiness. They tell themselves these short rewards get them through the day, but they ignore most of their life just getting them through the day. I am fascinated by the world. My days are not filled with bored drudgery. I work at a very exciting place and I still appreciate it. I can joke around at my work and do so all the time. There are some people who hardly ever joke around. Having conversations with these people is a chore. Most chores I can make fun, but talking to some people is difficult if not bordering on impossible. There are only so many topics you can talk about with boring people.

April 24, 2022

I’ve had a headache traveling around with me this week. The cause is a mystery. I’m not a headache-prone person. I sometimes get sinus headaches, but this doesn’t seem sinus related exactly. It could be the weather we’ve had recently. It’s been cold at night. Of course, it was much hotter today, so it doesn’t explain today’s headache. It could also be my lack of sleep recently. My brain is rebelling at the lack of dreams. They have fireworks later now, so getting out on time is almost impossible unless they cancel it. It is yet another reason I don’t like fireworks. Missing time after work means missing out on sleep. I’m not my usual bubbly self when I miss sleep. I’m cranky Brian and no one likes cranky Brian, especially cranky Brian himself.

Here’s a question. Why do people talk about souls as if they are real things? Only religious nuts talk about God or Jesus as if they are real, but almost everyone refers to their soul or soulmate. Soul music is especially annoying in that it was called that to distinguish black artists from non-black artists. Feeling something in your soul is the equivalent of feeling it in your heart, but at least your heart is real and you can point to it. It’s not actually where you feel things, but your emotions can affect it. The soul is the same non-existent thing as the spirit. As a non-religious person who does not like metaphors, I find these topics non-relatable and annoying. Talking about the soul of something tells me nothing about it. It seems to imply you are feeling something on a deeper level than just feeling it emotionally. Why don’t you just say how you feel and cut the metaphorical crap? There is nothing deeper than feeling strong emotions in your body. Your body is complex and does not need to be simplified into a metaphorical soul.